These kind of days bother me a little bit.

I went off with my brother this morning and a fair chunk of the afternoon.    Both of us got kind of red – nothing that my freckles can’t handle – and we got rained on for about fifteen minutes.

We came home and I ran out the NRG, sigils, or whatever on the game I play.  Had a bit of dinner.    … and now…   It’s just after 7pm.   The sun is still bright.   It’s not nearly as warm as it was this morning.  I feel like I still have some energy in me, although my body is heavy.

I’d like to do something the last hours of daylight, but what?
I need to take a shower, but it’s kind of to early for that.   So, here I sit.

After Monday, I guess I won’t have this ‘problem’ any more since class starts.  yay.
Things will be back to so-called normal.

I guess these in-between times is when I should reflect.  Read.    I really need these books I bought…  Watch a movie.  But, none of those things seem appealing.    It’s like when I’m busy I wish I had time to do all those things, but when I have this fee time, I don’t feel like doing anything and feel a little distressed over it.

At one point, years ago… even before the adjunct thing… I felt strong and I did my best not to waste a moment.  Every second was important.   I had such a thirst to make myself mentally better and to understand.

And then I introduced myself to MMRPGS.  =)

No, I would devote at least three hours a day to writing.   The mantra – school, work, write.    That’s what I did and produced hundreds of pages full of poorly written material that I was insanely proud of.

Only, but only, did I write if I had all of my college homework completed – and I wasn’t easy on myself.   I painstakingly highlighted every paragraph and typed up chapter after chapter worth of notes.    I religiously reviewed them before every test and even tried to speculate my own questions.

Such a nerd.
If I knew then what I know now as an adjunct, I probably wouldn’t have tried so hard.

Anyway, I have a new kind of distraction.    My brother and I have joined a Discord group for that silly game.   Who knew there’d be over 400 people in it?    Somehow, disquietingly quickly, I’ve become the resident ‘expert’ on stop and gym placements.  It’s soooo much fun trying to explain to multiple people why they can’t have a couch gym.

But, that’s all right.
It’s kind of oddly weirdly good to feel somewhat needed in a slacking sort of way.

It’s also kind of neat to be greeted by people on the street – in a nice way.  It’s the silicon life.    I don’t know them.   They don’t know me, but we wave and sometimes exchange information that could be helpful for everyone involved.

There’s some silent agreement and a sub-community that overlooks smartphone types, color, gender, and age.  And, since people are anonymous, I can run into them at any time.   All I have to do is listen for the traveling music or watch someone abusively pecking their phone.

L33t Ingress agent skills still in use.   What can I say?

Why ‘just cheese?”
The last two pizzas I ate were just cheese.
It’s not an eating disorder thing.  It’s a money thing.   Like today, we went to Smiling Teeth.   I got a small pizza – $5.75.  Or, if I wanted one of their variations, like Humble Pie, that would have been $8.95.   Um..    No.

If there isn’t a lunch special and money is involved, I’d rather have cheese with some red pepper sprinkled on it than someone adding 50 cents of chicken to it and charging three dollars more.

That’s silly.

Besides, maybe there isn’t enough appreciation for cheese pizza.    What’s wrong with the basics?

Monday is my day.
I’m going to do my best to get out of here early and to some things.

Tuesday is Dr. S.   Eight am.
I really like this psychologist, but I get a little nervous about seeing her for some reason.   While I’m driving, I come up with a laundry list of what to talk about and fidget while I’m in the waiting room.

Afterwards, I’m probably meeting the little sister somewhere.

I kind of wan to see the movie “Searching.”
–   Yeah, I know movie theaters are expensive and everything streams, but if I don’t watch it at the theaters, I tend not to watch it at home.     Outside of anime  — and that’s on a rare occasion —  I’m anti-TV.    I blame Knology.

Actually, I watch the most TV at the gym and catch a couple of hours.    Here, alone, not so much.

Anyways, I’ve wasted enough time now to take a shower and start to rest for tomorrow.

Thanks for wasting time with me.