I got the back yard mowed before it rained.   Ha ha!
Course, it’s the front yard that really needed, but I did the back yard.  The front yard will be tomorrow, providing there are 12 hours or so without rain so the yard will dry up a bit.

I know the weather is crazy all over — flooding in DC — snowing in Colorado — but I think this is might be a little extreme for Florida, but nothing unusual.  Steamy, humid, rain, steamy, humid, rain…   That’s what sub-tropical means, right?

It’s way different now then what it was in November.  But, that’s okay.   Except for that vine that’s mad climbing my internet line.  It’s kind of nice to stay at home.

I’m really kind of feeling that this trip is a representation of what would happen if I lived here full time.   Unless I took a job outside of the house, I’d continue to be an adjunct — just with more and controllable classes.    I’d be stuck at the house a lot.  Jason would be at work during the day.  We’d meet and spend a couple of hours together, when we’re not playing games or doing homework, sleep – reuse, recycle, repeat.

That’s what everyday life is supposed to be like, sort of, right?

Steady, but kind of boring.

Stuff happens.    Like I said in the other post, I think I have a pinched nerve in my neck and shoulder somewhere.   It causes quite a bit of pain in the evening and the morning.    Once I start moving around, it just becomes a dull ache but it’s difficult to actually start moving.

Fortunately, I’m not one to sit on my butt when it comes to pain.   I had enough of that in the House.   I was in pain in my ‘anorexia’ years.   I was in a body cast after my back operation.     I’ve had enough sitting and doing nothing.

Since I don’t have insurance or a doctor here, I’m probably going to be in some type of pain every morning and evening for the rest of my stay — which is about three weeks.  I’ll figure out a way to manage.

What’s more pain, at this point… but I feel that this is a type of foreshadowing.  If I lived here full time and my cancer came back… this pinched nerve pain would be a little bit of nothing.   Jason would have to find a way to care for me someway since I can’t take care of myself financially and possibly physically.

I’d pretty much be done for.   There would be a lot of delays and hidden resentment.  I tried that at one point.    Resentment is not the way to build a lasting relationship.

So… yeah… foreshadowing.
Odd correlation I’m making there.

One thing that has really come to light for me in the past couple of days is how passionate Jason is.

When something piques his interest, he full steam forward and I’m just kind of swept along.   This is like in Wizards Unite.   We grinded that game for almost a full week and now we’re ahead of everyone else.  When the first Po Go quest came, we did that in just a couple of days.  He got his kickstarter copy of Bloodstained.   I think he had defeated in three or four evenings.

Activities that are supposed to be for relaxation become like a quick second job.   It’s done until it’s beaten to death and forgotten unless something else happens to it.

But, his interest and passion go beyond just games.   He speculates, plots, plans, and studies.    He’s on Reddit and Discord reading what people say and making his own posts.   Not just in response to people.   Rather, he posts his well- thought observations along with screenshot support.   All of this is for strangers who probably don’t give two shakes.

But, he doesn’t do that for them.  I think he does it for himself and for the person who might actually understand his sincerity about the topic.

I don’t know why this is sticking with me at the moment.    I’ve always known him to be like that.  There was even a time when I tried to have a little garden in the back yard.   It was continually violated squirrels and birds.  I gave up hope on it, despite being an earth sign, but he kept going out there and watering it.

There was nothing but tomato stem stubble and weeds, but he’d go out and water it until there was nothing.

I’m glad that he cares so much about this stuff… rather it be games or plants.  It’s just wonderful to still have a type of energy, sense of self-worth, and letting himself be known.

I don’t know.   Maybe I’m just wondering a little if he feels the same way about me….
Love is great, but passion is a creature all its own.

Hum…   Ross Perot died today – cancer.

I don’t know anything about him except he had big ears.   He also got my first vote for present back in 92.  I hope he had a good life.

That’s all we get – a lifetime.