It’s getting kinda late, but I wanted to put out something since I haven’t for a while.

Life has been a bit busy — especially since little bro and sister have alternate days off.  Sunday for one..   Monday for the other… Tuesday….  I don’t have a day to myself until Thursday.

Which is okay.  I’m just dancing to their tune for a while.    It’s still good to spend time with them.

The last day sis had off, we trekked up north and looked at five or six apartment complexes.  Seriously, not fun… but I’m a ‘not fun’ type of person sometimes.   I don’t mind looking at different apartments or houses.    I think I was a realtor in another life.

But, it can become pretty tiring riding around in a car all day.   I’ll also admit that I’m not the best conversationalist, but I hope I was able to help her some.

I think the apartment themselves are within little sister’s budget, but she wants the add-ons.    I’m referring to the washer/dryer hookup which tends to run an additional $30 a month.    She wants a carport.   That’s $25 to $30.  The ground floor apartment she wants costs an additional $20 to $30.     And she wants an updated apartment.  i.e. – one without carpet.  This I can understand because she has really bad allergies, but that’s an additional cost.

It’s kind of like those airlines that have low ticket prices but charge $10 for a bag of peanuts and $5 for toilet paper.

To stay within her budget, she needs to compromise somewhere.    I’m not sure where she will or how, but she’s going to need to.

I’m feeling a little more comfortable with her leaving.    Well, yes and no.   I’d be a hypocrite if I didn’t support her leaving – which I do.    So, I’m pretty good there, but should there be a time I return to Florida full time, I’m going to have a difficult struggle.
Guilt will bloom anew.
Deep red.    Sharp thorns.

But, that’s not right now.  The best I can do is handle the ‘right now’ right now.

What else…..

Bill went into the hospital today to have the other blockage cleared.    Apparently he had one on the left and right.   Last month, they did left.  Today, it was right.    Since it was in his upper chest, it was blocking blood to his brain and he was acting more weird and forgetful than usual.    Hopefully, this will help put him straight.

For mom’s sake, I hope he doesn’t become delusional or lose his memory.   She’s already had one husband die on her — my dad.  Although I have my quibbles about Bill, he makes her happy.    He needs to keep doing that for as long as they live.

It would be hard to do so if he forgets who she is.

For some reason, I’m pretty psyched for the Joker movie.  I know it doesn’t come out until October, I think, but I really like movies I can rip apart from a psychological standpoint.    It’s like War of the Roses (1989) … and you haven’t seen that classic, shame on you.   There’s so much going on in that movie with family dynamics, male/female behavior, and societal expectation that I find it great.     So, hopefully, Joker will live up to my expectations.

One of the things about Joker is that he’s a bit delusional, right?  Schizophrenic? Depending on how it’s played out, can the audience really trust the camera?   The Joker would be an unreliable narrator.      Anyways, this will be a lot different than the other superhero movies.    Looking forward to it.

Um..  Class starts on Wednesday.
Which kind of sucks.  I like going about my days without the niggling annoyances of homework and what is going on in such-and-such life that could affect my job performance.

Although it might be nice to find a job that doesn’t involve adjuncting, I wouldn’t be able to leave it to travel to Florida.   It is what it is.

Which, again, sucks.  I’m not good with ‘it is what it is’ line of thinking.  I’m just kind of trapped into that right now.

Okay.  So, in brief, that’s what is going on.

Thanks for reading.