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….. Sneezles (the cat) hasn’t eaten anything in nearly a week. Or, at least about a week. He barely moves. Barely drinks. I think he mews when he doesn’t see anyone for a while or just when he has strength to do so. Quite clearly, he won’t be around for much longer. And there’s nothing Read more
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I’m kind of surprised that I’m doing as well as I am. The fluctuation in temperature from warm to cold has left me extremely stiff. My back is starting to bleed from the wound again. My joints ache. Of course, there’s the ongoing struggle to sleep and the change of thyroid medicine has left me Read more
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A couple of days ago, I felt almost broken. Not fully broken mentally or physically. Just severely cracked. I think I was feeling kind of peaceful. Kind of accepting. There wasn’t a reason to struggle or fret. I certainly wasn’t in the ‘everything will be okay’ camp but was just tired. It takes a lot Read more
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It’s amazing how I can label my entire day — a span of my life — by a thirty-minute appointment. It’s really kind of pathetic, isn’t it? Well, I think it’s pathetic. Time has to stop for me. But…. that’s one of the reasons why I strive for morning appointments. The less brooding the better. Read more
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This is odd. It’s the last day of the term. My four students have submitted their final project and I’ve graded it. Sure, there’s a couple of past-due assignments, but nothing major. My inbox isn’t overflowing with sob stories or extension requests. I almost don’t know what to do. It’s like the students actually have Read more
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Happy New Year! I sincerely hope everyone and yours survived last night. The cat has come out of hiding, which is good. Everything seems to be going forward, as it should. These are the days when we should reflect and think of how we can better ourselves and our community through resolutions – promises to Read more
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It’s been a few days since I wrote. Hi. Can’t believe Christmas is almost here. That’s crazy. It really is. I’m pretty much stuck here for the next couple of days. When the weatherman says it’s going to be rainy and “miserable,” that’s a good time to stay inside… although I’d still rather go to Read more
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I’m exhausted. What’s with the pink? There were pink walls, pink robes (the ones that tie in the front), and pink plastic bags. There was pink wrapped candy if I cared to pick any up. The pictures where ugly pink flowers. Pink. Pink. Pink. Pink. I get it. Breast cancer awareness is a pink ribbon, Read more
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Admittedly, I’ve made the past couple of days harder on myself than I needed to be. The Wednesday routine mammogram turned up something. This something was so something that they called me back on Thursday for additional pictures. Neither I nor my doctors are sure what it is yet, but I have two theories. A: Read more
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