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Daily Life

  • 1/10

    In a way, I feel like I’ve been self-harming a little bit. Not like mutilation or anything like that. It’s more along the lines of anorexia.    Eating too much.   Not eating enough. Drinking milk, although I know that sets off some very uncomfortable hot flashes.  I endure stress, negative thoughts, and self-doubt which often Read more

  • 1/8

    In my classes, I stress the importance of source verification. This goes way beyond “Did it come from Ebscohost?” Please.   After the vaccination scandal, who can believe what comes from ‘academic’ sources? … although I have to force myself to be a cheerleader for them. Even those who peer-review the peer review sources admit the Read more

  • 12/27

    To be honest, I haven’t felt like writing over the past couple of weeks. That’s not true.    I’ve felt like writing, but haven’t had the willpower or motivation to do anything. I think the reason is because of how I’m reacting to the situations and surroundings presented to me. Just to be clear, I Read more

  • Shhhh…

    I am being a very good girlfriend right now. Jason is taking his last test this semester so I’ve sequestered myself in the bedroom, door closed, and I’m going to be really quiet while he takes his test.  It’s a proctored exam which apparently means he has to allow Microsoft, Russia, and the government to Read more

  • 12/6

    Sometimes I wonder if my Prozac dosage didn’t change since I’ve been here. Certainly, there’s quite a bit of difference between here and Indiana.  Both good and bad.   But, I guess in Florida I’m adulting more than in Indiana.     It’s easier to be wise and beneficial when I don’t feel that I have as Read more

  • 11/18

    I feel really bad for the cat, Sneezles. There’s been this plumber, Julio, here since about 9:30. He’s doing his job with the drills and banging and whatever to replace some pipes in the wall.    That’s all well and good, but he’s been doing so for two and a half hours.    I imagine Read more

  • The Roofers Three

    Much like Scrooge, I’ve been visited by three spirits. – I refer to the roof salesmen as spirits because I’m not sure how I’m going to conjure the money, but whatevers, right?   It needs to be done. The first guy was named Jared from Company A. – Out of the three, he was the best Read more

  • 11/15

    I’m going a little crazy today. Because of the rain, I didn’t leave the property yesterday.   Today, the cold front is passing by.   There’s still a chance of rain, but I’m going to head out here in a little bit.  I just can’t help it. I need a project to work on. Writing, what I Read more

  • 11/14

    Hard start this morning. There’s stuff I want to do this morning, but I can’t seem to get the body to move.    Lack of self-discipline, I guess.  I need to get better. Yesterday evening, our time together was spoiled by the roof thing.  Or, my precisely, the money thing.   I can really understand how Read more

  • 11/9

    About this time tomorrow morning…. tomorrow morning as in AM…  I will be on a flight headed to Tampa.  Or, at least, sitting on a plan that’s on its way to Tampa. In a way, this is a good thing. Although Sunday is supposed to be nice and in the 50s somewhere, it’s dropping into Read more