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Daily Life

  • 7/3

    I guess I’m melancholy today. The day itself isn’t bad.   I got to hang out with baby brother, had pizza, and a couple of breadsticks.     Class hasn’t begun as of yet.    This is like a super relaxing time. It’s a little difficult to get motivated when it’s 90 plus outside.  =)… Read more

  • 7/1

    I think I’m handling this change well. I was supposed to go out with baby brother, but he hurt his leg last night. We’re staying instead of heading to the gym. At one point, I would have been internally furious at this. I would have been upset, sad, and scheming on how to make up… Read more

  • 6/24

    I think I lost sleep last night. Since this whole thing started and we’ve moved into ‘uncertain times,’ I’ve maintained the belief that everything will go back to what it was before. The loss of money from companies and the habits of Americans would be a significant factor in pushing back for normalcy.  We are… Read more

  • 6/10

    Only about a week and a half before my current class ends. Thank goodness. So, it was the class that almost wasn’t as it was given to me at literally the last moment.  It allowed me to make payments on the roof and car insurance.   I’m grateful for that.  Absolutely. But two students, in particular,… Read more

  • 6/8

    I’ve been back at mom’s house for about a month now. Still trying to get into a routine.     What I can do.   What I can’t (or shouldn’t) do.  Expectations — which there really isn’t much but I tend to pretend that there is. I didn’t just slide back into what I was doing before. … Read more

  • 6/1

    A long long long time ago, I came across this Chinese curse: May you live in interesting times from the introduction of a Terry Pratchett book.  I forget which one.    I think it was one of the novels about the indestructible Sam Vimes.  But, I could be wrong.   It’s been years and I had… Read more

  • 5/25

    Had an unbelievably lazy morning. I did get up early, around 6 which I think is my natural time, and munched on some slightly burnt low-fat eggos and a yogurt.  Felt cold.    Went back to bed and snuggled under the covers playing phone games while listening to the birds and the rain. At a… Read more

  • 5/21

    Well, today has been kind of a waste. After going with baby brother to his doctor’s appointment this morning (no masks required), I came home.   Worked a bit.   Caught up on my games.   Took a couple hour nap  Watched some cold openings of the BB99 (?) on Youtube and read Quora for about an hour… Read more

  • 5/19

    This has been a day of patience. I had to be patient this morning and felt like the morning hours were wasted.  I was to spend the day with my little sister, who didn’t wake until around eleven.   Which, I guess, has become the new COVID normal, but I couldn’t help but feel let down… Read more

  • 5/6

    It’s kind of been a rough time since I last posted. I was going to go back to Indiana last Sunday, but the plane was canceled.   They put me on an earlier flight without telling me and had to reschedule.  I’m here till Mother’s Day. Maybe. JetBlue announced today that they’re not going to be… Read more