eating disorder

/ I am * so * bashing my head in right now. Jason received a response from the State on a job on TUESDAY.. – Serious yay. Hopes are suddenly high. I’m praying for the light at the end of the tunnel. The State sent a spreadsheet and asked him to identify and explain what… Read more

It’s been a while since I’ve posted anything. Actually, longer than what I thought it has been. How time slips away sometimes. To my defense, I’ve been kind of busy with work. As the end of the term approaches, the workload ramps up, late assignments start to trickle in, and there’s just general panic. I’m… Read more

Yesterday was phenomenal on a couple of different fronts. Not personally phenomenal, although it was a gym day and I got to eat a Mancino’s. That’s just a normal great day. But, it was a globally phenomenal day for three primary reasons. * The global population hit eight million. — This means that, despite the… Read more

Yesterday, Jason had a “talk” about my weight and eating habits. He became emotional, shared his fears, and even seemingly teared up at one point. When that happens, his lips contract and face contorts. Instead of looking like a man, he curiously resorts into an angry child progression. It’s fascinating and ugly at the same… Read more

I wouldn’t say yesterday was a “very bad day.” It was a very exhausting day. It was trying. Frustrating. Upsetting. But, not ‘very bad.’ Very bad is a absence of good and there is good. There’s good in every day, even if it is bad. Even if the sun rises, it’s good, despite what may… Read more

I made so much noise this morning. It’s no secret that I wake earlier than Jason. He has the amazing ability to stay up late, and I tend to experience a hard mental shutdown between 10 and midnight. Although I try. I try to stay up later as that’s when he plays games. I strive… Read more

Yesterday, Jason and I went out for a walk in the neighborhood. It was, generously, in the 40s. It was windy. But, overall, not really bad. There wasn’t a lot of humidity in the air. There was sparse cloud coverage and the sun was bright. It wasn’t bad. It was still a pleasant day. But,… Read more

I feel so tired. If it wasn’t for the super vitamin B complex pills I sneak sometimes, I’d be a lot worse for wear. It’s not just being tired but approaching mentally exhausting along with body weary. While the weather has been playing nice, it’s been probably close to a decade since I’ve had to… Read more

Regardless of when and where, society divides itself into three categories. It tends to take the shape of a pyramid. At the bottom is the rabble. These are the generally unskilled laborers. They are the plebeians. They are the unwashed masses. Often underestimated and always dominated by the other two levels, these people perform repetitive… Read more

It’s raining really hard. Like, Noah’s Ark type of downpour. There’s thunder and lightning. I’m hearing those really relaxing rumble sounds. It won’t last long, of course. I think it’s already slowing and soon, it will be gone. But I was here, enjoyed it, and appreciated it while it lasted. I am fortunate for that.… Read more