eating disorder

It’s so easy to fall off the wagon. I need to hop back on that thing. Maybe it was just the holidays or whatever. Jason has had a day off here and there which kind of threw me off. Mostly, it’s depression. I’ve felt fairly helpless for the past couple of weeks. It doesn’t help… Read more

What does it matter? Saddy paced in her room. Her blue-green eyes darted out the window, to the walls, to the floor. She tugged a long strand of strawberry red hair that hung down her face while biting her lip. Surely, Aldren wouldn’t have found another. He wouldn’t have fallen for another, for Gabs. Would… Read more

Morning came. Saddy scattered the fire prepared the horse for the multi-day return trip. Aldren lazily woke and watched before finding a ration bar for breakfast. From the distance, the being that once was Gabs watched with interest while figgiting. Everything was new. ——– This doesn’t feel right. Okay. The sensations were new. Pain, delicious… Read more

Is this Covid crap over now? Who wants to get vaccinated have gotten vaccinated. Who doesn’t want to hasn’t. The people who haven’t can change their minds. Those who have stuck don’t have any recourse. It’s kind of like someone losing her virginity. Once it’s gone, it’s gone. The body may repair itself but the… Read more

Gabs’ mind’s eye was fading. The lapsing darkness felt like water creeping into her skin through her pores, through her body. A feeling of surrender, truth, and peace. She took a deep breath and cracked her eyes. With red-rimmed sight, she stared up, concentrating on the sensual slithering. It moved more inward and upward as… Read more

The night continued. Shadows blended with deep and were unabated by the hidden moon. Gabs lay still under her blanket. Eyes tightly closed, her fingers curled around the fabric holding it tight. Occasionally, she would smile or moan quietly. The shadows congealed. It formed a sleek snake-like dark mass. Growing substance and weight, it snaked… Read more

— For some reason, the previous weekend has made me feel mentally vulnerable. More so than usual. It’s weird, but I’m trying to pull myself out of it. Anyway… Night became absolute and Gabs slept fitfully. Her mind created and replayed the situation of the conversation. She, Aldren, and Saddy would stand in a room,… Read more

Gabs watched intently. She studied every move Saddy made, making note of every touch. When Saddy placed Aldren’s head on her lap and brushed back her hair, she cringed. The gesture couldn’t be affection. It couldn’t be love or concern. Rather, it was a ploy move. Saddy wanted something and this sort of attention was… Read more

— Part of the purpose of this bit is to compare/contrast how Saddy takes care of herself vs. Aldren. Since they are reunited, Aldren receives fresh meat and special attention, and as much comfort as Saddy can provide. Saddy, as shown before, survives off rations and doesn’t make personal care a priority. Saddy bowed a… Read more

— I was hit by a car on Veteran’s Day. I don’t consider that an excuse for not writing, especially after I made up my mind to write a book. Yeah, I really have no excuse. So, let’s try to limp along, shall we? ——————– Gabs wiped her eyes from the grimy sweat. She wasn’t… Read more