eating disorder

I should have gotten my butt out of bed this morning and went to the gym – but nope. I was awake and something in my head just went ‘nope’ and I went back to sleep. It might be because of this cold I have. My throat isn’t as sore as it was yesterday, but… Read more

Random thoughts on feminism. I’m thinking that most girls have some sort of daddy issues. I know I do to an extent. Likewise, guys can have mommy issues. Freud was really big on stuff like that. We rely on our parents to guide us when we’re growing up and, sometimes, they’re not the best guides.… Read more

I self-idenitify with the earth elemennt. Winding this back for a moment. Typical elements. Fire, water, wind, earth. They’ve been popularlized through media throughout the years. It’s difficult to actually consider them real. Well, they’re real. But, their meanings and intents have become undercut and something of a joke. Disney to Captain Planet have underwhelmed… Read more

Welp… I’ve ran through every test from the doctors outside of two. I have a mammogram and bone density test on Friday. Or, as I have it in my head, a bone and boob test. I’m pretty sure I’m going to pass those with flying colors too. This really leaves me wondering why I was… Read more

I’ve been sticking my head in the sand for the past week. I’ve been going ot the gym and working myself to the point of near exaustion… which I konw isn’t the best, but it sure does feel good. Well, at least to me a tired body feels good. I link it to actually doing… Read more

He would go quietly. She loved him. The curve of his face. Curl of his eyebrows. She had loved him from time beyond measure. Through the bullying of elementary school to the odd flirting of high school. All of those years. She loved him from the stands as he played football. She took up the… Read more

Lately, it’s been all about the past. Oxhorn movies… Robot Chicken…. Just old stuff I enjoyed years and years ago. It probably doesn’t have anything to do at all with the month. Nope. Not at all. So, tomorrow… tomorrow is gym with my brother in the morning and shopping with the little sister in the… Read more

Some days, you just want to listen to Nickleback. I’m still doing really good. The arm is still a bit sensitive from the dog bite but that’s to be expected. I think the wound is trying to close up. Still working on the eating thing. I’m trying to impose a 12 hour fast type strategy.… Read more

I knew I should have went to the gym today. I got up early enough. I was motivated but something in my head said “nah, it’ll be fine.” Instead, I slept in and went to the park. It’s still a little chilly here but bright. It’s beautiful. But, I know I burn more calories at… Read more

Well, happy mother’s day. Last year, I was pretty bummed out. I’ll never have anyone to celebrate mother’s day with because I’ll never be a mother. But, I’m okay with it this year. Rather, I’m just feeling really fortunate and blessed that my mom is still alive and she cares for me. She’s gone through… Read more