eating disorder
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Buying is a source of power. – It’s something so simple that most tend to take it for granted. Buying milk for the family? That’s power. Being able to pay a bill. That’s power. However, that’s not enough. The ability to buy items to provide the basic and essential needs for ourselves and others isn’t… Read more
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This term I’m a co-teacher. Okay, this is no big deal. I’ve been a co-teacher before for this particular college. What it’s supposed to amount to is a third of the pay at half of the work. The theory is that, since this is a beginning class of new online learners, that two teachers is… Read more
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Okay, so going to the grocery store isn’t a big deal for most people. If anything, given the way the online trend is going, grocery stores are a bit of a hassle. In a generation or so, we’ll simply have everything auto-shipped from Amazon. Or, possibly, everything will be pre-ordered and be delivered drive-thru window… Read more
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Okay, you know how when we survive something traumatic. “I’ll never do that again. I’m going to put it behind me.” – I think that’s self-defense. The situation tested our boundaries or caused a potent emotional reaction that we don’t want to feel it, be reminded of it, or experience it ever, ever, ever, again.… Read more
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You may or may not know I’m an adjunct. Yes, one of those poor overworked souls who was promised freedom, respect, societal glory, and a firm financial future. – The reality is, of course, far from the promised land. I really feel for my students who are under the impression life will be so –… Read more
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I really have no other way to start this… Yes, I really did clean my room, sorta. I visit the shrink on a weekly basis now. During our last visitation, she stated quite plainly, several times, that I know how to take care of others. I clean their rooms. I vacuum. I mop. To take… Read more
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My life in song: — The lyrical version… — When mom and dad worked all the time my theme song was “Bad to the Bone” followed closely by “Free Bird.” Elementary/middle school – when I was being bulled and had no problems being mean right back my song was “Veteran of Psychic Wars” by Blue… Read more
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Mom and Bill went to Indy for a doctor appointment. Original thought: — Yay! I can sneak out to the gym from 7 to noon without worry of being caught or interrupted. Second thought that came to me while I was attempting to sleep: — Why do that to yourself? You’ve been to the gym… Read more
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Last week was kinda rough. Tuesday – Mrs. Meriam — I don’t think she’s effective, but it’s a reason to get out of the house — told me that I don’t know how to care for myself and place others before me. – Same old song, different day. I’ve been told that for over a… Read more
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I’ll freely admit that the last couple of weeks have been fairly rough. In short, the doctor doubled by prozac because I’m showing eating disorder and other types of behaviors. Jason, the boyfriend, is staying this month… so far, so good… but it’s still be very odd and a little difficult. I haven’t seen him… Read more
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