eating disorder

Okay. Goals for tomorrow: – I got to see Kerri at Centerstone for a mid morning appointment. Oh boy, I got a lot to tell her. She won’t have a lot of time to talk about her daughter. Then, I think I’ll try to find a place for a full face wax. I caught my Read more

Well, I’m back home. I cleared St. Francas yesterday just in time for the snow dump. I think it caused over 300 wrecks and delays according to the server from TGIF. It was rather unexpected. Mom, Jason, and I went to TGIF as kind of a celebration for my release. It was pretty nice although Read more

I continue to be Jane in the hospital mists. The aide last night was a bit more enlightening. She didn’t like to get wet so, on top of waiting three plus hours for a shower, I had to figure out how to use the shower. Which is fine. I’m a big girl. It’s just difficult Read more

All of the self-good will I had earlier today vanished and embarrassingly quick. One more night here at the hospital. Okay. I’m okay with that. The health insurance failing to pick up the bill sent me into spasms. I didn’t question it. I didn’t stop to think. I just went to a dark place very Read more

What a way to spend valentine’s day. I’m in St. Francian hospital, room T524. I guess it’s a nice enough room but I can’t see out the window, my back hurts, the bed is uncomfortable…. I’ve been unhooked from the IV drip and have been running to the bathroom myself… which sets off the sensor alarm on Read more

I think I truly am my father’s daughter.  Although a loyal and strong family man, he was a bit of an ass. He was offensive, difficult to get along with, stubborn, and everything had to fit his viewpoint. If it didn’t, it was automatically wrong or rejected. Essentially, he was a barely tolerable pain in the Read more

I scared myself yesterday. Typically, in a daily life of an anorexia, it started with breakfast. Instead of having my usual, I went with half a cup of egg whites. I tend to adore egg whites but had cut them out of my diet. Inspired by Jason’s willingness to change because of being a diabetic, I Read more

This year is promising to end full of fun and frivolity. Today… today despite not having insurance currently but I guess that’s okay since this chiropractor doesn’t take my insurance… I was told that my neck has a moderate amount of arthritis. I’m not sure what constitutes a moderate amount but I was able to Read more

I’ve just spent two hours working on the classes. New term – new class – new posts – new students. I have yet to be called a racist pig-dog and I don’t think I’ve upset anyone yet. So far, so good. Maybe I should start counting the hours to see how long it takes. Yes, Read more