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  • 8/22

    A couple of days ago, I felt almost broken. Not fully broken mentally or physically. Just severely cracked. I think I was feeling kind of peaceful. Kind of accepting. There wasn’t a reason to struggle or fret. I certainly wasn’t in the ‘everything will be okay’ camp but was just tired. It takes a lot… Read more

  • 5/19

    This has been a day of patience. I had to be patient this morning and felt like the morning hours were wasted.  I was to spend the day with my little sister, who didn’t wake until around eleven.   Which, I guess, has become the new COVID normal, but I couldn’t help but feel let down… Read more

  • 5/13

    I’m in a unique situation. I’m the oldest of three siblings, who are all in their 40s, who still get along with each other.  I think that’s something my dad never dreamed possible when he is, in part, responsible for our unity. Sure, we think and say bad things about each other every now and… Read more

  • 12/27

    To be honest, I haven’t felt like writing over the past couple of weeks. That’s not true.    I’ve felt like writing, but haven’t had the willpower or motivation to do anything. I think the reason is because of how I’m reacting to the situations and surroundings presented to me. Just to be clear, I… Read more

  • The Roofers Three

    Much like Scrooge, I’ve been visited by three spirits. – I refer to the roof salesmen as spirits because I’m not sure how I’m going to conjure the money, but whatevers, right?   It needs to be done. The first guy was named Jared from Company A. – Out of the three, he was the best… Read more

  • 9/9

    It’s getting kinda late, but I wanted to put out something since I haven’t for a while. Life has been a bit busy — especially since little bro and sister have alternate days off.  Sunday for one..   Monday for the other… Tuesday….  I don’t have a day to myself until Thursday. Which is okay.  I’m… Read more

  • 9/4

    Well…   I’m really not too sure how to feel right now. This morning, little sister told me around 6am  (the time is worthy of note because she is – not – a morning person) that she going to move to a place that’s just a little over an hour away. Her job offered her a… Read more

  • 7/22

    I….  we….  head to Indiana on Friday. Then, two weeks after that, he heads back alone. Him, to a house with only a cat, work, and school. I’m back to my doctors and family. It doesn’t seem quite fair.     This is probably the most ‘normal’ we’ve been in like… forever.  He goes to… Read more

  • 4/18

    I’ve been feeling pretty odd lately on several different fronts. It’s about time for me to return to Florida, as per Jason and my agreement from February.  I’m supposed to go down there for a couple of months and then both of us head back to Indiana in late July for Gencon and his vacation.… Read more

  • 3/28

    I talked myself out of seeing a movie. I heard that US was a psychological horror flick with tones of anti-socialism and groupthink.  It’s a bit bloody, kind of funny, and would take many viewings to catch the entire meaning. I was going to watch it yesterday but sabotaged myself by staying too long at… Read more