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Just thinking

  • 5/21

    Well, John from CenterS gave me an assignment. Since he actually read some of my blog posts and took notes (!!), I thought I’d work on this. My assignment was to come up with ten songs that influenced or are important to me. In thinking, I’ve come up with a lot of honorable mentions but… Read more

  • 5/18

    Imagine that you’re an ant. You’re working with your colony in the moist dirt. It isn’t raining and newly hatched so there might be a peace to the community. There might be a feeling of harmony as everyone begins to work together for the greater goal of preparation for the queen, the extra mouths to… Read more

  • 4/27

    Jason is ill this weekend. I’m not sure what’s wrong outside of a sore throat. He won’t allow a doctor visit – which is understandable. Being the weekend, a doctor would probably be ER and there’s probably not a reason for that level of care. Although hauling him into Kroger or CVS for a quick… Read more

  • 4/2

    Kind of stick with me on this. As I mentioned in the previous post, this week has been against my usual routine of doctors and therapists. I had developed a fairly set routine with going out on Mondays, Wednesdays, and sometimes Tuesdays with Thursdays being ‘clean the house day.’ This week, I had Tuesday and… Read more

  • 3/30

    I think what annoyed me about Liz Wheeler the other day was a combination of a number of things. My foot, recovering from arthritis and having two pens in two toes, hurt horribly. The weather, while trending in the warmer direction, is becoming damp and that’s causing distraction and a type of achiness. Liz’s tone… Read more

  • 3/16

    I just did something potentially crazy…. There was a Fat Con in Seattle early February. Out of morbid curiosity, I skimmed it, particularly the ticket prices and what was included. $1200 for VIP + Plus $600 for VIPAnd a couple of hundred for two days and about a hundred for a single day. It’s been… Read more

  • 3/5

    um….. My foot hurts. It hurts a lot. Me, someone who has lived with some sort of physical pain for the past forty or so years, have learned to ignore it, departmentalize pain, and accept it. It’s more of a constant companion than a bother. It reminds me that I’m alive, providing I acknowledge its… Read more

  • Dear Student

    I think you should be proud of yourself. From what you’ve stated, this term has been tough. You’ve stated that work has been overwhelming, and you have been increasingly ill all term. That’s a lot, especially when you’re trying to do your best in college. To support, I “forgotten” to apply all applicable late penalties… Read more

  • 3/2

    I feel like I have a lot going on. It’s temporary, I think, but it’s a lot. The most immediate is that the class ends tomorrow. Final essays were due last night and only a handful submitted. So, in theory, there should be at least ten finals plus oral presentations, plus little bs things to… Read more

  • 12/27

    Now that Christmas as steamed rolled by, everything will start to become ‘normal.’ I’m not looking forward to normal. Normal often leads me to dark spaces in my mind, anxiety, becoming upset, desperate, and a very unhappy me. I I fear that I will become unstable. Not that I’m stable now… but just having people… Read more