after thoughts

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psychological

  • 5/7

    I’ve been in an odd sort of mood lately. Well, I’m always in an odd sort of mood.   But, that’s beside the point. I’ve been noticing things lately.  Not good things.  Things that are a bit worrying. During my anorexic years, I became increasingly aware of the shapes of other people. I wasn’t cruel to Read more

  • 5/5

    Today has been kind of odd. I skipped out on my Sunday morning workout and walked around in Mill Race for about three hours.  I got there around 7am.   It was a bright and beautiful day, but couldn’t get above 65 for some reason.    With the wind, it was kind of chilly, but in Read more

  • 4/29 – free writing

    Tomorrow, I need to take my fakey Boniva.  It’s not the named branded stuff, but I guess it serves the same purpose.    Okay, it’s not tomorrow.   Rather May 1st. Tomorrow I see Endgame with little bro and sister after going to the gym with little bro. Experiment —- Actually going to try to free Read more

  • 4/28

    Okay, so new-ish day. It’s already after three. Lazy rainy day.   It’s supposed to rain all week.  Not a whole lot going on. Well, this time of year there’s always a lot going on, especially the weekends.   But, there’s kind of not a lot for me to do besides the usual – gym and chilling Read more

  • 4/27

    Okay. So, this week is – Sunday –  half me day Monday – full me day Tuesday – going all in with both siblings to watch Endgame Wednesday – me, I guess Thursday – Little sister day Friday – me day. New class on Wednesday. It’s another 102, but the co-teach this term doesn’t seem Read more

  • 4/26

    I was going to write something yesterday, but I was so rudely interrupted by a two and a half hour phone call………………….   Bleh. In a way, I feel like I’m in a pretty good place in my life right now. It’s certainly not perfect by any means, but I’m working (sorta), being a good sister, Read more

  • 4/18

    I’ve been feeling pretty odd lately on several different fronts. It’s about time for me to return to Florida, as per Jason and my agreement from February.  I’m supposed to go down there for a couple of months and then both of us head back to Indiana in late July for Gencon and his vacation. Read more

  • 4/12

    Another odd day. Yesterday, I had the full intention of going to the gym, doing homework, and eating a pint of Arctic Zero I bought for myself.   Rather, little sister bought for me at the same time she bought herself B&J’s Cinnamon Bun, which disappeared after two days. I opened my eyes this morning, about Read more

  • 3/28

    I talked myself out of seeing a movie. I heard that US was a psychological horror flick with tones of anti-socialism and groupthink.  It’s a bit bloody, kind of funny, and would take many viewings to catch the entire meaning. I was going to watch it yesterday but sabotaged myself by staying too long at Read more

  • 3/3

    I think every woman has daddy issues. Okay, maybe not every woman.  If a child is raised by two happy parents of the same gender, I’m not sure if there would be daddy issues.  That’s unknown to me. All I know is that, from my perspective, grown women tend to have issues in relationships which Read more