after thoughts

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psychological

  • Okay, so going to the grocery store isn’t a big deal for most people.  If anything, given the way the online trend is going, grocery stores are a bit of a hassle.   In a generation or so,  we’ll simply have everything auto-shipped from Amazon.  Or, possibly, everything will be pre-ordered and be delivered drive-thru window… Read more

  • If music is life…

    My life in song: —  The lyrical version… —  When mom and dad worked all the time my theme song was “Bad to the Bone”  followed closely by “Free Bird.” Elementary/middle school – when I was being bulled and had no problems being mean right back my song was “Veteran of Psychic Wars” by Blue… Read more

  • Some progress… maybe?

    Mom and Bill went to Indy for a doctor appointment. Original thought: —  Yay!  I can sneak out to the gym from 7 to noon without worry of being caught or interrupted. Second thought that came to me while I was attempting to sleep: —  Why do that to yourself?  You’ve been to the gym… Read more

  • Back to gluttony… binging… yep.  I did on left over turkey.   I didn’t eat it all, as there is a partial leg left, but everything else in the container mysteriously disappeared down my gullet during the evening and night- as well as a good portion of my favorite Apple Butter BBQ –  don’t knock it… Read more

  • Checking in

    I’m really not to sure how long it’s been since I was released from the House.  Two months?  Three?  I guess it doesn’t matter – the whole situation seems surreal now.  It feels like it was a vague dream that has uncomfortable real life reminders.  I suppose its like dreaming of getting drunk and waking… Read more

  • Scaring myself

    Gluttony is when you crave something so much that it’s unhealthy, unnatural and immoral. It’s when your brain says “that’s enough,” but you reach for the ice cream anyway, without hesitation, and without will.  It’s when you verbally beat an opponent, feel sorry that they’re so pathetic, but still continue with the attack for no… Read more

  • Another song…

    There’s certain songs that resonate with people, I think.  Even if music is a foreign to the person… there’s always something.  Some tune, some lyric, that resounds in the mind during times of trouble or distress. Maybe it’s like the way a cat purrs when it’s injured.  The purring helps comfort the cat.  Maybe the songs help comfort us. What type… Read more

  • Selfish Conversations…?

    Phone conversations are not my favorite.  Texting, writing, e-mails – sure.  I can write thoughts and feelings down, edit for clarity, and feel completely embarrassed that there are words I still cannot spell – but Spell Check can. Speaking is an uncouth cousin by comparison.  Once a word is said, it’s cannot be undone.  It… Read more

  • Yours Truly, A Hot Mess

    Yesterday, which was some 2.5 hours ago, was really kind of difficult… but it started surprising well. I had three (yes three) doctor appointments.  I did it this way intentionally – best to knock how several in a single day then spread it out over a week.  I simply detest having one — appointment per… Read more

  • Stability vs. Sanity

    Some fruit of my not-so-polite college inquiries has yielded fruit. I will be an online .. still adunct of course… of a Comp II course. Positives: –  Money –  Something to do –  Keeps the resume free of half a year work absences – I don’t have to drive in the snow, since it’s an online… Read more