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  • 7/3

    Yesterday…. yesterday was a bit rough. I took it on myself to fight my fear and mow the yard. Yes, I know how silly that sounds… mowing the yard. But it’s more than just moving. It’s the strength to start the mower, not freaking out when it stalls, and just doing it. Just the action Read more

  • 6/30

    Today is kind of odd. No appointments other than lunch with the little sister. Spent most of the morning cleaning house. I’m between classes. The new one starts on Wednesday. I didn’t have much to do and felt the need to do some deep cleaning. When I returned from lunch, it was about three or Read more

  • 6/28

    Lately, I’ve been feeling that I need to do more with less. I’m starting to become wasteful and even wanton – although I’m not sure how that word applies. It’s like I’m fattening up and not holding myself accountable or to as strict self-regulation as I have previously. This bloated feeling affects just about everything Read more

  • Dear Students, Congratulations on completing ENG 202. Some of you have passed. Some of you did not. But, you did advance in your college career to ENG 202. Although, I’m not sure how as many of you seem bewildered by coping APA references from generators, using Word, or even capitalizing the word “I” and the Read more

  • 6/14

    My current big brain thought is energy. According to the Conservation of Energy, energy can never be created or destroyed. Energy is all around us. It’s in us. It’s food. It’s muscle responses. If you’re religious, it’s the Divine Spark. Energy can be stored, transformed, and converted. But there’s just so much to go around. Read more

  • 6/8

    Jason, bless him, mowed the yards on Friday. Despite it being muggy and the discomfort it caused, he mowed. Thank goodness. It had been over a week and I don’t think I had the brain compacity to handle it. I’m getting better. I think I am. But I would have had a miserable weekend. Even Read more

  • 5/27

    The idea of living in a simulation has been around for a while. Popularized by the Matrix films and further embedded by people like Scott Addams, the exterminates of politics, and terms like being ‘red pilled,’ feeling like living in a simulation isn’t a foreign concept. But, I think that’s a little too complex. If Read more

  • 5/24

    Today, I just feel like I want to scream. I want to cry. I want to sleep although I know rest will not come. And the thing is that I have no idea why. For once, I slept (fairly) well and late. Well, late for me. It was actually around late in the 9 o’clock Read more

  • 5/21

    Well, John from CenterS gave me an assignment. Since he actually read some of my blog posts and took notes (!!), I thought I’d work on this. My assignment was to come up with ten songs that influenced or are important to me. In thinking, I’ve come up with a lot of honorable mentions but Read more

  • 5/18

    Imagine that you’re an ant. You’re working with your colony in the moist dirt. It isn’t raining and newly hatched so there might be a peace to the community. There might be a feeling of harmony as everyone begins to work together for the greater goal of preparation for the queen, the extra mouths to Read more