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Rambling

  • 5/27

    The idea of living in a simulation has been around for a while. Popularized by the Matrix films and further embedded by people like Scott Addams, the exterminates of politics, and terms like being ‘red pilled,’ feeling like living in a simulation isn’t a foreign concept. But, I think that’s a little too complex. If… Read more

  • 5/24

    Today, I just feel like I want to scream. I want to cry. I want to sleep although I know rest will not come. And the thing is that I have no idea why. For once, I slept (fairly) well and late. Well, late for me. It was actually around late in the 9 o’clock… Read more

  • 5/21

    Well, John from CenterS gave me an assignment. Since he actually read some of my blog posts and took notes (!!), I thought I’d work on this. My assignment was to come up with ten songs that influenced or are important to me. In thinking, I’ve come up with a lot of honorable mentions but… Read more

  • 5/18

    Imagine that you’re an ant. You’re working with your colony in the moist dirt. It isn’t raining and newly hatched so there might be a peace to the community. There might be a feeling of harmony as everyone begins to work together for the greater goal of preparation for the queen, the extra mouths to… Read more

  • 5/3

    When I was a Wiccan, I associated myself with May First. A.K.A. May Day’. May Day is the celebration of fertility and growth. It’s the symbolic shedding of the cold and listless winter returning to life. It’s often associated with the birth of lambs, children, and dancing around the May Pole. You know – that’s… Read more

  • 4/27

    Jason is ill this weekend. I’m not sure what’s wrong outside of a sore throat. He won’t allow a doctor visit – which is understandable. Being the weekend, a doctor would probably be ER and there’s probably not a reason for that level of care. Although hauling him into Kroger or CVS for a quick… Read more

  • 4/2

    Kind of stick with me on this. As I mentioned in the previous post, this week has been against my usual routine of doctors and therapists. I had developed a fairly set routine with going out on Mondays, Wednesdays, and sometimes Tuesdays with Thursdays being ‘clean the house day.’ This week, I had Tuesday and… Read more

  • 3/16

    I just did something potentially crazy…. There was a Fat Con in Seattle early February. Out of morbid curiosity, I skimmed it, particularly the ticket prices and what was included. $1200 for VIP + Plus $600 for VIPAnd a couple of hundred for two days and about a hundred for a single day. It’s been… Read more

  • 3/5

    um….. My foot hurts. It hurts a lot. Me, someone who has lived with some sort of physical pain for the past forty or so years, have learned to ignore it, departmentalize pain, and accept it. It’s more of a constant companion than a bother. It reminds me that I’m alive, providing I acknowledge its… Read more

  • 2/10

    This is kind of an odd day. The Super Bowl ended with a bang, apparently, as the Eagles slaughtered the favored Chefs. Favored, I guess because of Swift’s boyfriend, Trump endorsed, and received numerous disputed calls to get them there. I guess it is supposed to be one of the most lopsided Bowls ever. The… Read more