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  • 6/25

    I shoulda went to the gym today and then did some running, but I didn’t do that.   Instead, I spent two hours at the park making myself feel really silly. You see, I spent a silly amount of energy on Wizards United trying to get a fracking owl lecturn to prepare for this weekend’s Read more

  • 6/1

    A long long long time ago, I came across this Chinese curse: May you live in interesting times from the introduction of a Terry Pratchett book.  I forget which one.    I think it was one of the novels about the indestructible Sam Vimes.  But, I could be wrong.   It’s been years and I had Read more

  • 5/27

    I tend to write more when I’m in Indiana. I think that’s because some of my worries are poof. I’m not worried about the water bill or the electric bill.   I feel comfortable getting something to eat.  The family doesn’t get on me too much about it and I know enough to stay away from Read more

  • 5/13

    I’m in a unique situation. I’m the oldest of three siblings, who are all in their 40s, who still get along with each other.  I think that’s something my dad never dreamed possible when he is, in part, responsible for our unity. Sure, we think and say bad things about each other every now and Read more

  • 2/18

    No lie. It’s been a rough couple of days. I know how became rough. Yesterday, I couldn’t stomach pizza and got sick in the evening. Rewind.   It started with a mass headache on 2/17.   It was so bad that I literally couldn’t think and could barely see.    But, I am who I am so Read more

  • 2/15 pt 2

    I actually took Jason’s car to get it washed.   I paid for the deluxe wash that comes with the Rain X, bug protector, and wheel sparkle.  Spent a good half hour vacuuming it, filled it with gas, and Armor-alled it when I got home. That’s not a bad Valentine’s Day present I guess. It’s not Read more

  • 2/14

    Well, I’m off to a great start. It’s almost one and I just woke from a three-hour nap.  What’s up with that? I knew I was getting worn out a bit, but just blanking out for multiple hours isn’t my style.   It’s not it was a straight multi-hour nap. I woke up a couple of Read more

  • 2/6 pt 2

    Today is going a little slow…. but I guess that’s good. I’ve vacuumed, scrubbed, and steamed.  The dryer is going – hopefully, to be done soon.  I haven’t gone through every nick and corner of the house, but quite a bit.    I found some unapproved secret not-so kitty litter boxes and cleaned all that Read more

  • 1/14

    Jason isn’t back from his Tampa class yet, so I thought I’d give this another go before I fall asleep. I’m listening to: While it says super intelligence and memory, I’m about ready to just pass out.  It’s gently sapping my energy. Recent impressions of the new year – Retail.    Since I’m in a Read more

  • 1/10

    In a way, I feel like I’ve been self-harming a little bit. Not like mutilation or anything like that. It’s more along the lines of anorexia.    Eating too much.   Not eating enough. Drinking milk, although I know that sets off some very uncomfortable hot flashes.  I endure stress, negative thoughts, and self-doubt which often Read more