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  • Notre Dame – Our Lady of Pieces

    A couple of lifetimes ago, I had the privilege of visiting Europe on a two-week tour.   It was the summer after my high school junior year.  This was just a year before I knew I was going to become part cyborg.  I was a different me and it was a different time. I worked in… Read more

  • Throat punched at Marengo Cave

    How’s that for a clickbait title?   =) I wasn’t throat punched at the cave.  As far as I remember, I’ve never been throat punched, thank goodness, but at times it has felt like it and left a hurtful dull bruise that lasts… well, it lasts for a really long time. Backtracking a little… I can’t… Read more

  • 8/12

    This is odd. It’s the last day of the term. My four students have submitted their final project and I’ve graded it.  Sure, there’s a couple of past-due assignments, but nothing major.  My inbox isn’t overflowing with sob stories or extension requests. I almost don’t know what to do.  It’s like the students actually have… Read more

  • 7/26

    Have you ever had one of those days… weeks… where you’re trying to project a feeling to the significant other.     That person doesn’t acknowledge it, just doesn’t get it, or chooses to ignore it. This is more than “Hey idiot, do the dishes.” Rather, it’s like a mutual and soulful agreement that really… Read more

  • 7/22

    I….  we….  head to Indiana on Friday. Then, two weeks after that, he heads back alone. Him, to a house with only a cat, work, and school. I’m back to my doctors and family. It doesn’t seem quite fair.     This is probably the most ‘normal’ we’ve been in like… forever.  He goes to… Read more

  • 7/12

    Scrub-a-dub-dub. Fresh off my triumph of doing yard work yesterday without it raining — take that 70% chance —  I decided to double down and do some yard work today as well.     Out I went! Since I mowed the yard, weeded, and did some other stuff yesterday, I did what Frank suggested.    Off… Read more

  • 7/9

    I got the back yard mowed before it rained.   Ha ha! Course, it’s the front yard that really needed, but I did the back yard.  The front yard will be tomorrow, providing there are 12 hours or so without rain so the yard will dry up a bit. I know the weather is crazy all… Read more

  • 7/7

    Odd day. Odd weekend. Because of the Fourth, Jason had four days off from work.   We pretty much spent them in each other’s company.  Four days of 24 hours of me all the time.    Wow.   I feel sorry for him when I think about it.   I wouldn’t want to be alone… Read more

  • 6/13

    I made yesterday harder for me than I needed to. First, I’ve been really good about skipping my Prozac for the past couple of days.   The last time I did that was a couple of years ago when I had a not-so-friendly panic attack.   I felt shamed because of the distress that I underwent and… Read more

  • 6/11

    The Florida trip is going well so far. Actually, it’s kind of weird.     Weird in that it’s almost normal. Jason isn’t going to school and comes home in the evening.    He sits and plays games or we go walking somewhere.   I monitor my class and go to the gym, weather permitting.… Read more