after thoughts

Don't live the American dream. Live your dream.

  • 2/15 -pt 2

    All of the self-good will I had earlier today vanished and embarrassingly quick. One more night here at the hospital. Okay. I’m okay with that. The health insurance failing to pick up the bill sent me into spasms. I didn’t question it. I didn’t stop to think. I just went to a dark place very… Read more

  • 2/15/2024

    Another day in the life. Day three… potentially day three here in room T524. I don’t know if I’m leaving today or have another night but here I am on the other side of a rough night. Last night was far more difficult to fall asleep than before. I don’t know if it was just because I’m… Read more

  • 2/14/2024

    What a way to spend valentine’s day. I’m in St. Francian hospital, room T524. I guess it’s a nice enough room but I can’t see out the window, my back hurts, the bed is uncomfortable…. I’ve been unhooked from the IV drip and have been running to the bathroom myself… which sets off the sensor alarm on… Read more

  • 2/2/2024

    I think I truly am my father’s daughter.  Although a loyal and strong family man, he was a bit of an ass. He was offensive, difficult to get along with, stubborn, and everything had to fit his viewpoint. If it didn’t, it was automatically wrong or rejected. Essentially, he was a barely tolerable pain in the… Read more

  • 1/26/2023

    I scared myself yesterday. Typically, in a daily life of an anorexia, it started with breakfast. Instead of having my usual, I went with half a cup of egg whites. I tend to adore egg whites but had cut them out of my diet. Inspired by Jason’s willingness to change because of being a diabetic, I… Read more

  • 11/15/2023

    This year is promising to end full of fun and frivolity. Today… today despite not having insurance currently but I guess that’s okay since this chiropractor doesn’t take my insurance… I was told that my neck has a moderate amount of arthritis. I’m not sure what constitutes a moderate amount but I was able to… Read more

  • 9/6

    I’ve just spent two hours working on the classes. New term – new class – new posts – new students. I have yet to be called a racist pig-dog and I don’t think I’ve upset anyone yet. So far, so good. Maybe I should start counting the hours to see how long it takes. Yes,… Read more

  • 9/5

    And he’s off… Jason is off to some sort of governmental party that’ll keep him away for a couple of days. I think it’s great that I know my tax dollars are being spent on shrimp cocktails and the Marriot. But, honestly, I’m glad we have a couple of days apart… sort of. Of course… Read more

  • 8/31

    I’m in flux right now. The popular belief is that the masks and lockdowns will come back sometime in September. But this is based on a lot of heresy. It will be until it’s not and I refuse to believe that American (and the world) would allow such restrictions again. But people will. I don’t… Read more

  • 8/23

    For 48 years, I never went to the ER. Not even once. I had no need to. I was in generally good health and stayed out of trouble. ER was a place for burn victims, car accidents, and heart attacks. It was a place for emergencies – which is why it is it the ER.… Read more