after thoughts

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  • 5/24

    Welp… I’ve ran through every test from the doctors outside of two. I have a mammogram and bone density test on Friday. Or, as I have it in my head, a bone and boob test. I’m pretty sure I’m going to pass those with flying colors too. This really leaves me wondering why I was… Read more

  • 5/22

    I’ve been sticking my head in the sand for the past week. I’ve been going ot the gym and working myself to the point of near exaustion… which I konw isn’t the best, but it sure does feel good. Well, at least to me a tired body feels good. I link it to actually doing… Read more

  • Trying..

    He would go quietly. She loved him. The curve of his face. Curl of his eyebrows. She had loved him from time beyond measure. Through the bullying of elementary school to the odd flirting of high school. All of those years. She loved him from the stands as he played football. She took up the… Read more

  • 5/15

    Lately, it’s been all about the past. Oxhorn movies… Robot Chicken…. Just old stuff I enjoyed years and years ago. It probably doesn’t have anything to do at all with the month. Nope. Not at all. So, tomorrow… tomorrow is gym with my brother in the morning and shopping with the little sister in the… Read more

  • 5/13

    Some days, you just want to listen to Nickleback. I’m still doing really good. The arm is still a bit sensitive from the dog bite but that’s to be expected. I think the wound is trying to close up. Still working on the eating thing. I’m trying to impose a 12 hour fast type strategy.… Read more

  • 5/10

    I knew I should have went to the gym today. I got up early enough. I was motivated but something in my head said “nah, it’ll be fine.” Instead, I slept in and went to the park. It’s still a little chilly here but bright. It’s beautiful. But, I know I burn more calories at… Read more

  • 5/9

    Well, happy mother’s day. Last year, I was pretty bummed out. I’ll never have anyone to celebrate mother’s day with because I’ll never be a mother. But, I’m okay with it this year. Rather, I’m just feeling really fortunate and blessed that my mom is still alive and she cares for me. She’s gone through… Read more

  • 5/6

    I’ve spent most of today pleasently working on my class. Although I’ve only got one course, the introductory week is only three days. This is day two and there’s been quite a bit for me to do. Nothing to rush through, but stuff that would build up if I didn’t keep it in check. But,… Read more

  • 5/4

    Happy Star Wars Day. … May the Force (Fourth) be with you. How completely cringe worthy. May Fourth was a marketing gimmic for Disney. They’d just bought Lucas Films and where releasing new Start Wars movies. This day was hyped by toy stores and the filming industry and very nearly made into an unofficial official… Read more

  • 5/1

    May is my month. It’s always been my month. It always will. The cold is gone. The heat has yet to arrive. Life is living. I’m stuck between fat and thin, sane and crazy, old an young. May is my balance that I do not have. I also always thought that if I were turned… Read more