after thoughts

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  • 9/11

    It’s disheartening. Over the past couple of days, America has some rapid fire situations. I use the word situations loosely as I’m not sure how to describe them. First, there was the delayed story of the Ukranian refugee, Iryna Zarutska. The violence occurred on August 22 but wasn’t widely reported on until last week, nearly Read more

  • 9/7

    “That’s a bold strategy, Cotton” keeps going through my head. Context: I have been ’employed’ with my current college for 13 long ass years. As a token of appreciation, I received a thin paper bookmark with boldly inscribed with the logo and how long the college has been in existence and the obligatory unsigned ‘thank Read more

  • 9/3

    I’m between classes right now. Despite not having a paycheck coming in, I’m feeling rather relieved. The last couple of weeks of the semester were a bit of a wreck for me. I was fairly paranoid since it was such a large class – about thirty students. That’s about eight to ten more students than Read more

  • 8/28

    Do you remember Gauntlet? It was a four-person game back in the mid 80s and 90s. Plug a quarter in and you could play as a quick but weak elf, mid-skilled Valkyrie, slow warrior or even slower wizard. I’d hope and pray for reflective shot and, I think, at one point there was a way Read more

  • Big brain thought: Marriage.

    At one point and maybe even traditionally, marriage was seen as a social and legally binding contract. Two people, man and woman, unite via kills with the understood obligation of creating a conjoined unit for the purpose of companionship and to, ultimately, raise children. Marriage grants political, social, and economic rights and… hopefully,,, stability. It Read more

  • 8/8

    The anxiety is starting to creep back in. Over the past couple of weeks… maybe even a month… I’ve been managing it well. It’s almost been a golden month. I think I’ve had a better attitude. I’m still struggling with sleeping. But it’s getting better. I’ve been making it a point to eat a lot Read more

  • 7/31

    I’ve been trying really hard to be good. The euphoria from earlier this week has all btu evaporated. It dipped severely on Tuesday. Came back and evened out a bit on Wednesday with the little sister. Today, I’m fighting to stay in even. I don’t want to be depressed but not so high that I’ll Read more

  • 7/28

    Today is kind of strange. I’ve eaten a lot. Specifically, I’ve eaten a lot of proteinGreek yogurt. An entire tub of cottage cheese. Egg white wraps. High protein Ensure. I have a grilled chicken salad and an additional chicken breast on deck for dinner in addition to a potential Fairlife should Jason want it. So,,, Read more

  • 7/27

    Here we go again. Another Sunday. Another day of just barely keeping a cap on the crazy. The crazy being the anxiety. The depression. The screaming. The wild emotions that linger just under the surface of my skin and behind my eyes. It could be worse. I could be playing the panic flute about the Read more

  • Baby Suppression

    It has occurred to be that the lower to nil birth rate is intentional. A lot of it can be traced back to the World Economic Forum and social trends. It’s intentional reproductive suppression. Just spit balling here: * Sterilization and birth defects through vaccinations. * With the rise of the gig economy, maternity leave Read more