after thoughts

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  • 3/5

    um….. My foot hurts. It hurts a lot. Me, someone who has lived with some sort of physical pain for the past forty or so years, have learned to ignore it, departmentalize pain, and accept it. It’s more of a constant companion than a bother. It reminds me that I’m alive, providing I acknowledge its… Read more

  • Dear Student

    I think you should be proud of yourself. From what you’ve stated, this term has been tough. You’ve stated that work has been overwhelming, and you have been increasingly ill all term. That’s a lot, especially when you’re trying to do your best in college. To support, I “forgotten” to apply all applicable late penalties… Read more

  • 3/2

    I feel like I have a lot going on. It’s temporary, I think, but it’s a lot. The most immediate is that the class ends tomorrow. Final essays were due last night and only a handful submitted. So, in theory, there should be at least ten finals plus oral presentations, plus little bs things to… Read more

  • 2/10

    This is kind of an odd day. The Super Bowl ended with a bang, apparently, as the Eagles slaughtered the favored Chefs. Favored, I guess because of Swift’s boyfriend, Trump endorsed, and received numerous disputed calls to get them there. I guess it is supposed to be one of the most lopsided Bowls ever. The… Read more

  • 2/8

    I don’t know if I’m cold or hot. When I wake up or just do something around the house, I feel like I’m freezing and resist the urge to play with the thermostat. Of course, I cave because the hands feel like blocks of ice and I start shivering. On comes the heat and within… Read more

  • 1/26

    I kind of have to feel for the journalists. They “actually” have a job now. After four years of non-reporting and hiding the Biden’s fumbles, there has been a constant and rapid fire changes in policy through the drama of executive orders. The nominations of cabinet members need coverage since, at this point, most of… Read more

  • 1/20

    It’s about one in the morning. Trump will be sworn in, again, in roughly eleven hours. He, apparently, has over 100 executive orders to be signed before lunch which is reputed to undo some of Biden’s bull and radically start an American transformation. Biden committed harm to America. It’s far reaching and will impact people… Read more

  • 1/12

    The world is going back to normal. Jason has returned to work I’m not seeing the little sis as frequently. I still get a mom visit, but it’s brief as she injects the shot of whatever big pharma miracle into me to help (hopefully) rebuild my bones. It’s cold – uncomfortably so. There’s more snow… Read more

  • 12/27

    Now that Christmas as steamed rolled by, everything will start to become ‘normal.’ I’m not looking forward to normal. Normal often leads me to dark spaces in my mind, anxiety, becoming upset, desperate, and a very unhappy me. I I fear that I will become unstable. Not that I’m stable now… but just having people… Read more

  • 12/25

    Merry Christmas. Happy Hanukkah. After years of those short but important phrases being all but taboo, it’s nice that they’re back. Or, at least, back until the next wave of societal flux into something else that’s basically unrecognizable and scary. I feel like I should be cleaning the house right now. Well, it’s not really… Read more