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anorexic

  • I… I haven’t been well lately. A lot of this I think I’m placing on myself. I’m anxious about work. About my health. About relationships. About the holidays. Thanksgiving is less than a week away and I’m stressing. I’m quite happy with my current consumption of food. The pressure of mashed potatoes, gravy, dressing… I Read more

  • 10/18

    I feel like I messed up. Jason found this article from someone who claimed that 70% or higher dark chocolate (non-alkaline aka. – not Dutch chocolate) has a wealth of benefits. It has flavonoids, magnesium, anti-oxidants… ect. After a bit of quick research, we bought a bar of Tony’s from the local Wal-Mart. That evening, Read more

  • 7/21

    Today… today is kind of a strange day. Typically, little sister and I would be out and about. If this was June, Jason would be here and the day would just happen. But, Jason and little sister had to work. I don’t have any appointments and had the day to myself. So, I slept in Read more

  • 6/19

    This is seriously shameful, but I’m trying not to freak. I’m upset that the grass is getting high and it’s been an obsession all day. I’ve checked, double checked, triple checked the forecast. It’s promised rain. I’ve prayed for rain. For a storm. For a sprinkle. But, nothing. I didn’t have a whole lot of Read more

  • 5/24

    Today, I just feel like I want to scream. I want to cry. I want to sleep although I know rest will not come. And the thing is that I have no idea why. For once, I slept (fairly) well and late. Well, late for me. It was actually around late in the 9 o’clock Read more

  • 5/18

    Imagine that you’re an ant. You’re working with your colony in the moist dirt. It isn’t raining and newly hatched so there might be a peace to the community. There might be a feeling of harmony as everyone begins to work together for the greater goal of preparation for the queen, the extra mouths to Read more

  • 4/2

    Kind of stick with me on this. As I mentioned in the previous post, this week has been against my usual routine of doctors and therapists. I had developed a fairly set routine with going out on Mondays, Wednesdays, and sometimes Tuesdays with Thursdays being ‘clean the house day.’ This week, I had Tuesday and Read more

  • 4/1

    It’s kind of odd being home today and tomorrow. Well, I guess Tuesday and Thursdays are my typical ‘home’ days with Monday being chiro and Wednesday being Centerstone (supposed mental health). But, with everyone becoming pregnant and new employees at the chiro, my routine has been shifted a bit. I’m not sure if it’ll even Read more

  • 3/30

    I think what annoyed me about Liz Wheeler the other day was a combination of a number of things. My foot, recovering from arthritis and having two pens in two toes, hurt horribly. The weather, while trending in the warmer direction, is becoming damp and that’s causing distraction and a type of achiness. Liz’s tone Read more

  • 3/2

    I feel like I have a lot going on. It’s temporary, I think, but it’s a lot. The most immediate is that the class ends tomorrow. Final essays were due last night and only a handful submitted. So, in theory, there should be at least ten finals plus oral presentations, plus little bs things to Read more