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depression

  • 12/3

    The first of December was a day of firsts. It was my first encounter with HBO therapy. No, HBO therapy isn’t sitting around watching The Sopranos and Mad Men. Rather, it’s being placed into a tube that’s filled with complete and pure oxygen. It’s commonly used for burn victims, gangrene and to promote the body’s Read more

  • 7/4

    Okay. So, today, I’m feeling kind of lost. Jason is off of work. We don’t have a schedule. No real reason to go anywhere. It’s too hot outside to do anything substantial. No events. No appointments. Class has started but there’s nothing to grade right now. We might change the water softener filter and… ? Read more

  • 5/24

    Today, I just feel like I want to scream. I want to cry. I want to sleep although I know rest will not come. And the thing is that I have no idea why. For once, I slept (fairly) well and late. Well, late for me. It was actually around late in the 9 o’clock Read more

  • 4/2

    Kind of stick with me on this. As I mentioned in the previous post, this week has been against my usual routine of doctors and therapists. I had developed a fairly set routine with going out on Mondays, Wednesdays, and sometimes Tuesdays with Thursdays being ‘clean the house day.’ This week, I had Tuesday and Read more

  • 11/21

    I guess I’m a little slow on the update, but I think mowing season is over. It’s snowing this evening and it’s mostly sticking. When I checked the mail, I tracked in some wet footprints. The furnace keeps kicking on. My bones, muscles, and body aches. The upper back and front are exceedingly tight. Yep. Read more