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  • 7/3

    Yesterday…. yesterday was a bit rough. I took it on myself to fight my fear and mow the yard. Yes, I know how silly that sounds… mowing the yard. But it’s more than just moving. It’s the strength to start the mower, not freaking out when it stalls, and just doing it. Just the action Read more

  • 6/8

    Jason, bless him, mowed the yards on Friday. Despite it being muggy and the discomfort it caused, he mowed. Thank goodness. It had been over a week and I don’t think I had the brain compacity to handle it. I’m getting better. I think I am. But I would have had a miserable weekend. Even Read more

  • 5/27

    The idea of living in a simulation has been around for a while. Popularized by the Matrix films and further embedded by people like Scott Addams, the exterminates of politics, and terms like being ‘red pilled,’ feeling like living in a simulation isn’t a foreign concept. But, I think that’s a little too complex. If Read more

  • 5/18

    Imagine that you’re an ant. You’re working with your colony in the moist dirt. It isn’t raining and newly hatched so there might be a peace to the community. There might be a feeling of harmony as everyone begins to work together for the greater goal of preparation for the queen, the extra mouths to Read more

  • 5/3

    When I was a Wiccan, I associated myself with May First. A.K.A. May Day’. May Day is the celebration of fertility and growth. It’s the symbolic shedding of the cold and listless winter returning to life. It’s often associated with the birth of lambs, children, and dancing around the May Pole. You know – that’s Read more

  • 4/1

    It’s kind of odd being home today and tomorrow. Well, I guess Tuesday and Thursdays are my typical ‘home’ days with Monday being chiro and Wednesday being Centerstone (supposed mental health). But, with everyone becoming pregnant and new employees at the chiro, my routine has been shifted a bit. I’m not sure if it’ll even Read more

  • 3/30

    I think what annoyed me about Liz Wheeler the other day was a combination of a number of things. My foot, recovering from arthritis and having two pens in two toes, hurt horribly. The weather, while trending in the warmer direction, is becoming damp and that’s causing distraction and a type of achiness. Liz’s tone Read more

  • 3/5

    um….. My foot hurts. It hurts a lot. Me, someone who has lived with some sort of physical pain for the past forty or so years, have learned to ignore it, departmentalize pain, and accept it. It’s more of a constant companion than a bother. It reminds me that I’m alive, providing I acknowledge its Read more

  • 3/2

    I feel like I have a lot going on. It’s temporary, I think, but it’s a lot. The most immediate is that the class ends tomorrow. Final essays were due last night and only a handful submitted. So, in theory, there should be at least ten finals plus oral presentations, plus little bs things to Read more

  • 2/10

    This is kind of an odd day. The Super Bowl ended with a bang, apparently, as the Eagles slaughtered the favored Chefs. Favored, I guess because of Swift’s boyfriend, Trump endorsed, and received numerous disputed calls to get them there. I guess it is supposed to be one of the most lopsided Bowls ever. The Read more