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  • Ifs… (part one?)

    What if I had a daughter?Name options: Lyra LynnGabrina JoeElizabeth FayeWhat if I had a son? Xavier Thomas.Devon ShaneWhat if I had a cat?Miss HapMr. E What if I had followed through with running away from home with my brother and sister when I was a teenager? The plan was the Florida Keys – the… Read more

  • 3/7

    I guess I’m okay. I’ve encountered some situations lately that would, in the past, have sent anxiety and panic. These are situations that would have just left me screaming in the truck or the shower. I’ve managed them somewhat gracefully through just really not giving a f*ck. I’ve learned that I have been considered legally… Read more

  • Dear Students (Jan 26 Edition)

    Students, This also includes Grok, ChatGPT, and others, in addition to the biological students. Our time thankfully comes to a close tomorrow. This, of course, only applies to the biological students. Unless you failed the course. If you failed, there’s a chance you’ll be enrolled with me again, which, unless there is some improvement and… Read more

  • Connecting the dots – educational doom theory

    There are three articles I’d like to note here. Well, maybe more, but three key ones. Fast Facts: Students with disabilities (60) — Although a bit dated, this link shows the percentage of college students who claim some sort of disability. Mostly, these disabilities are OCD, ADHD, and general anxiety disorder. This means that the… Read more

  • 2/15

    Prompt:V-Day weekend. Went to Olli’s and the boyfriend bought some Ollipops.Amazing deal, by the way. $3.49 plus 15% off.Typically, they’re about $8 per four. Sure, they expire in a couple of months, but it’s cherry. He’ll drink them. Felt a bit guilty and relieved that we didn’t run off to a mall. Although going to… Read more

  • 2/7

    Thought-examining post. I’ve noticed something.If I feel forced to do something, or if there’s an activity, situation, or person I’m uneasy about, I don’t want to do it. I don’t want to meet the person. I don’t want to leave the area. I don’t want to alter my routine. I will feel anxiety and depression,… Read more

  • 1/29

    A lot of my life and past is structured around trash. Okay. Here me out. This post is probably going to be disjointed. But keep the idea of ‘trash’ – as in reuse – items primarily – in mind. When I was small, it was beaten into my head that a person’s home is a… Read more

  • 1/27

    I’m kind of in a grumpy mood. It’s cold, and according to the crystal ball of the meteorologists, it’s going to get colder. The oxygen casket sessions have been interrupted. I’m itchy scratchy as heck. The wounds on the back burn. It’s highly uncomfortable. Jason, who was kinda romantic and sweet, turned sour yesterday –… Read more

  • 1/18

    Here I go again, I guess. After a week of fearing that I wouldn’t have a paycheck, a class was granted. I had 24 hours to accept the job and ready the course. Of course, I could do so because I’m a bit on the obsessive side of things like that. Actually, it’s fairly unhealthy… Read more

  • 1/9

    The world…. the world has ended 2025 and started 2026 with a bang. Literally. Venezuela… the shooting in Minnesota… child care fraud… Greenland… Overshadowed, the imposing government shutdown 2.0 is on the horizon. The CES scary robots and tri-folding screens are mostly under-reported. Ukraine is still a thing, as well as whatever is going on… Read more