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  • 12/3

    The first of December was a day of firsts. It was my first encounter with HBO therapy. No, HBO therapy isn’t sitting around watching The Sopranos and Mad Men. Rather, it’s being placed into a tube that’s filled with complete and pure oxygen. It’s commonly used for burn victims, gangrene and to promote the body’s… Read more

  • 11/13

    Today…. today is an odd day. Actually, it’s been an odd week. Month. Right now, Cammeron from Comfort Heating, Plumbing, and Air is here for a PM check. Although the plumbing is just three years old, we had a lot of problems at the start. The special of $40 seems more than fair. I’m also… Read more

  • 11/6 –

    Today has been difficult. I guess it’s to be expected. I’ve had a couple of precious months where I almost felt stable. Good, bad, or ugly, I didn’t break down. Last night I started to feel mentally wobbly and almost lost it over trash of all things. This morning, I started out okay, but I… Read more

  • 10/29

    I’m apprehensive about the SNAP thing. It doesn’t affect me. I’m not on SNAP, but given my history, I know food access shouldn’t be denied. It can be limited, difficult, have self-imposed boundaries, or medical restrictions. But denied? No more food stamps? It’s not just that. Americans have little to no, generally speaking, financial comprehension.… Read more

  • 9/24 Truth to Power

    I hate catch phrases that relate to excuses. “This is the way it has to be” for example. No, that’s not the way it has to be, That’s a lazy man’s excuse. “It is what it is” is another bs line. Nothing is what it is. It’s what we perceive it to be, not what… Read more

  • 9/17

    This feels like a long week. There’s been Charlie Kirk’s ongoing saga. I keep seeing the same themes that played out over George Floyd. Anyone who spoke against the narrative were deemed a social outcast – or worse. He became a symbol that sold t-shirts, cheap China crap, and became symbolic of a national ideological… Read more

  • 9/11

    It’s disheartening. Over the past couple of days, America has some rapid fire situations. I use the word situations loosely as I’m not sure how to describe them. First, there was the delayed story of the Ukranian refugee, Iryna Zarutska. The violence occurred on August 22 but wasn’t widely reported on until last week, nearly… Read more

  • 9/7

    “That’s a bold strategy, Cotton” keeps going through my head. Context: I have been ’employed’ with my current college for 13 long ass years. As a token of appreciation, I received a thin paper bookmark with boldly inscribed with the logo and how long the college has been in existence and the obligatory unsigned ‘thank… Read more

  • 9/3

    I’m between classes right now. Despite not having a paycheck coming in, I’m feeling rather relieved. The last couple of weeks of the semester were a bit of a wreck for me. I was fairly paranoid since it was such a large class – about thirty students. That’s about eight to ten more students than… Read more

  • 8/28

    Do you remember Gauntlet? It was a four-person game back in the mid 80s and 90s. Plug a quarter in and you could play as a quick but weak elf, mid-skilled Valkyrie, slow warrior or even slower wizard. I’d hope and pray for reflective shot and, I think, at one point there was a way… Read more