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  • 6/19

    This is seriously shameful, but I’m trying not to freak. I’m upset that the grass is getting high and it’s been an obsession all day. I’ve checked, double checked, triple checked the forecast. It’s promised rain. I’ve prayed for rain. For a storm. For a sprinkle. But, nothing. I didn’t have a whole lot of Read more

  • 6/14

    My current big brain thought is energy. According to the Conservation of Energy, energy can never be created or destroyed. Energy is all around us. It’s in us. It’s food. It’s muscle responses. If you’re religious, it’s the Divine Spark. Energy can be stored, transformed, and converted. But there’s just so much to go around. Read more

  • 6/8

    Jason, bless him, mowed the yards on Friday. Despite it being muggy and the discomfort it caused, he mowed. Thank goodness. It had been over a week and I don’t think I had the brain compacity to handle it. I’m getting better. I think I am. But I would have had a miserable weekend. Even Read more

  • 5/27

    The idea of living in a simulation has been around for a while. Popularized by the Matrix films and further embedded by people like Scott Addams, the exterminates of politics, and terms like being ‘red pilled,’ feeling like living in a simulation isn’t a foreign concept. But, I think that’s a little too complex. If Read more

  • 5/24

    Today, I just feel like I want to scream. I want to cry. I want to sleep although I know rest will not come. And the thing is that I have no idea why. For once, I slept (fairly) well and late. Well, late for me. It was actually around late in the 9 o’clock Read more

  • 5/21

    Well, John from CenterS gave me an assignment. Since he actually read some of my blog posts and took notes (!!), I thought I’d work on this. My assignment was to come up with ten songs that influenced or are important to me. In thinking, I’ve come up with a lot of honorable mentions but Read more

  • 5/18

    Imagine that you’re an ant. You’re working with your colony in the moist dirt. It isn’t raining and newly hatched so there might be a peace to the community. There might be a feeling of harmony as everyone begins to work together for the greater goal of preparation for the queen, the extra mouths to Read more

  • 5/3

    When I was a Wiccan, I associated myself with May First. A.K.A. May Day’. May Day is the celebration of fertility and growth. It’s the symbolic shedding of the cold and listless winter returning to life. It’s often associated with the birth of lambs, children, and dancing around the May Pole. You know – that’s Read more

  • 4/27

    Jason is ill this weekend. I’m not sure what’s wrong outside of a sore throat. He won’t allow a doctor visit – which is understandable. Being the weekend, a doctor would probably be ER and there’s probably not a reason for that level of care. Although hauling him into Kroger or CVS for a quick Read more

  • 4/6

    The world is on a type of fire right now. The word “tariffs” should be on one of those Las Vegas neon signs that tempt drunks with the words “girls girls girls.” No matter where I go or what I do, it’s tariffs, tariffs, tariffs. How much they are. What they will impact. How much Read more