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mental-health

  • 1/18

    Here I go again, I guess. After a week of fearing that I wouldn’t have a paycheck, a class was granted. I had 24 hours to accept the job and ready the course. Of course, I could do so because I’m a bit on the obsessive side of things like that. Actually, it’s fairly unhealthy Read more

  • 1/9

    The world…. the world has ended 2025 and started 2026 with a bang. Literally. Venezuela… the shooting in Minnesota… child care fraud… Greenland… Overshadowed, the imposing government shutdown 2.0 is on the horizon. The CES scary robots and tri-folding screens are mostly under-reported. Ukraine is still a thing, as well as whatever is going on Read more

  • 12/26

    This is probably going to be a rambling post. My brain is a bit scattered, and I’m trying to stay busy while waiting for when to leave for the oxygen casket. For the precious month of December and maybe a week of January, Jason has reduced work. My class is usually on break. It’s cold Read more

  • 12/8

    Well, I had my second session with the oxygen casket. I know it’s not a casket. It’s more of a plexiglass tube on a fairly uncomfortable gurney for about two hours. The Wound Care got new caskets, and I was the guinea pig. It looked just like the old one, although the cover was different. Read more

  • 12/4

    I joined the tube club. The wound care set me up with a doctor in a nearby hospital. I was in and out within an hour. There were some stark differences. The doctor from the local hospital was male. I was the last appointment of the day. Just kind of inserted in for a quick Read more

  • 12/3

    The first of December was a day of firsts. It was my first encounter with HBO therapy. No, HBO therapy isn’t sitting around watching The Sopranos and Mad Men. Rather, it’s being placed into a tube that’s filled with complete and pure oxygen. It’s commonly used for burn victims, gangrene and to promote the body’s Read more

  • I… I haven’t been well lately. A lot of this I think I’m placing on myself. I’m anxious about work. About my health. About relationships. About the holidays. Thanksgiving is less than a week away and I’m stressing. I’m quite happy with my current consumption of food. The pressure of mashed potatoes, gravy, dressing… I Read more

  • 11/21 – Witchy thoughts

    You may not know this about me, but at one time I was a witch. Well, I wouldn’t label myself that. More like a Wiccian. Or, specifically, a nature observer… ? Analysist…. ? I looked for patterns and symbols. In doing so, I strived to be objective, rational, and reject the pre-assigned meanings. Humanity is Read more

  • 11/13

    Today…. today is an odd day. Actually, it’s been an odd week. Month. Right now, Cammeron from Comfort Heating, Plumbing, and Air is here for a PM check. Although the plumbing is just three years old, we had a lot of problems at the start. The special of $40 seems more than fair. I’m also Read more

  • 11/6 –

    Today has been difficult. I guess it’s to be expected. I’ve had a couple of precious months where I almost felt stable. Good, bad, or ugly, I didn’t break down. Last night I started to feel mentally wobbly and almost lost it over trash of all things. This morning, I started out okay, but I Read more