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  • 10/29

    I’m apprehensive about the SNAP thing. It doesn’t affect me. I’m not on SNAP, but given my history, I know food access shouldn’t be denied. It can be limited, difficult, have self-imposed boundaries, or medical restrictions. But denied? No more food stamps? It’s not just that. Americans have little to no, generally speaking, financial comprehension. Read more

  • 10/9 – Coke owes us.

    I learned a little tidbit of information yesterday. Do you know those Coke Freestyle machines?The ones that allow you to add whatever base and syrup you want to your paper cup? There’s the freedom to come up with flavor combinations that can’t be found on the open market. So, you could have Dr. Pepper Orange Read more

  • 9/24 Truth to Power

    I hate catch phrases that relate to excuses. “This is the way it has to be” for example. No, that’s not the way it has to be, That’s a lazy man’s excuse. “It is what it is” is another bs line. Nothing is what it is. It’s what we perceive it to be, not what Read more

  • 9/11

    It’s disheartening. Over the past couple of days, America has some rapid fire situations. I use the word situations loosely as I’m not sure how to describe them. First, there was the delayed story of the Ukranian refugee, Iryna Zarutska. The violence occurred on August 22 but wasn’t widely reported on until last week, nearly Read more

  • 9/7

    “That’s a bold strategy, Cotton” keeps going through my head. Context: I have been ’employed’ with my current college for 13 long ass years. As a token of appreciation, I received a thin paper bookmark with boldly inscribed with the logo and how long the college has been in existence and the obligatory unsigned ‘thank Read more

  • 9/3

    I’m between classes right now. Despite not having a paycheck coming in, I’m feeling rather relieved. The last couple of weeks of the semester were a bit of a wreck for me. I was fairly paranoid since it was such a large class – about thirty students. That’s about eight to ten more students than Read more

  • 8/28

    Do you remember Gauntlet? It was a four-person game back in the mid 80s and 90s. Plug a quarter in and you could play as a quick but weak elf, mid-skilled Valkyrie, slow warrior or even slower wizard. I’d hope and pray for reflective shot and, I think, at one point there was a way Read more

  • 8/8

    The anxiety is starting to creep back in. Over the past couple of weeks… maybe even a month… I’ve been managing it well. It’s almost been a golden month. I think I’ve had a better attitude. I’m still struggling with sleeping. But it’s getting better. I’ve been making it a point to eat a lot Read more

  • 7/28

    Today is kind of strange. I’ve eaten a lot. Specifically, I’ve eaten a lot of proteinGreek yogurt. An entire tub of cottage cheese. Egg white wraps. High protein Ensure. I have a grilled chicken salad and an additional chicken breast on deck for dinner in addition to a potential Fairlife should Jason want it. So,,, Read more

  • 7/27

    Here we go again. Another Sunday. Another day of just barely keeping a cap on the crazy. The crazy being the anxiety. The depression. The screaming. The wild emotions that linger just under the surface of my skin and behind my eyes. It could be worse. I could be playing the panic flute about the Read more