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  • 8/28

    Do you remember Gauntlet? It was a four-person game back in the mid 80s and 90s. Plug a quarter in and you could play as a quick but weak elf, mid-skilled Valkyrie, slow warrior or even slower wizard. I’d hope and pray for reflective shot and, I think, at one point there was a way… Read more

  • 8/8

    The anxiety is starting to creep back in. Over the past couple of weeks… maybe even a month… I’ve been managing it well. It’s almost been a golden month. I think I’ve had a better attitude. I’m still struggling with sleeping. But it’s getting better. I’ve been making it a point to eat a lot… Read more

  • 7/28

    Today is kind of strange. I’ve eaten a lot. Specifically, I’ve eaten a lot of proteinGreek yogurt. An entire tub of cottage cheese. Egg white wraps. High protein Ensure. I have a grilled chicken salad and an additional chicken breast on deck for dinner in addition to a potential Fairlife should Jason want it. So,,,… Read more

  • 7/27

    Here we go again. Another Sunday. Another day of just barely keeping a cap on the crazy. The crazy being the anxiety. The depression. The screaming. The wild emotions that linger just under the surface of my skin and behind my eyes. It could be worse. I could be playing the panic flute about the… Read more

  • Baby Suppression

    It has occurred to be that the lower to nil birth rate is intentional. A lot of it can be traced back to the World Economic Forum and social trends. It’s intentional reproductive suppression. Just spit balling here: * Sterilization and birth defects through vaccinations. * With the rise of the gig economy, maternity leave… Read more

  • 7/21

    Today… today is kind of a strange day. Typically, little sister and I would be out and about. If this was June, Jason would be here and the day would just happen. But, Jason and little sister had to work. I don’t have any appointments and had the day to myself. So, I slept in… Read more

  • 7/19

    Jason is sleeping and, try as I might, I can’t stay down. When he’s at home, I try to wake at the same time he does. It’s a challenge since it’s difficult to sleep and, once my brain switches on, I begin to structure my day, what I want to do, should do, need to… Read more

  • The New Four Horsemen: Big Data, AI, 3D Printing, and Robotics

    There are Four Horsemen, right? DeathConquestFamineWar. Pale HorseRed HorseBlack HorseWhite Horse These are mentioned, I think, in the Old Testament and are supposed to be indicators of the End of Times and the Second Coming. After some thought, I think I’ve identified the up-to-date version of the Four Horsemen. . big data3d printingairobotics I’m kind… Read more

  • 7/4

    Okay. So, today, I’m feeling kind of lost. Jason is off of work. We don’t have a schedule. No real reason to go anywhere. It’s too hot outside to do anything substantial. No events. No appointments. Class has started but there’s nothing to grade right now. We might change the water softener filter and… ?… Read more

  • 7/3

    Yesterday…. yesterday was a bit rough. I took it on myself to fight my fear and mow the yard. Yes, I know how silly that sounds… mowing the yard. But it’s more than just moving. It’s the strength to start the mower, not freaking out when it stalls, and just doing it. Just the action… Read more