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If music is life…

My life in song: —  The lyrical version…

—  When mom and dad worked all the time my theme song was “Bad to the Bone”  followed closely by “Free Bird.”

Elementary/middle school – when I was being bulled and had no problems being mean right back my song was “Veteran of Psychic Wars” by Blue Oyster Cult.  (Little did I know that song was influenced by a future favorite writer, Michael Moorcock.)

As a teenager, when I entered my Wiccan phase and had my spine operation looming, it changed to “Bitch” by Meredith Brooks.
That and “Angel, Angel Down Together We Go” by Morrissey.

Early college – “Bloodletting” and “Poisonous Garden” Concrete Blonde –
“All Hallows Eve”  “Bloody Kisses” and “Summer Breeze”  Hey, the Type O Negative CD was played — a lot — and Pete Steele was hot – even for me.
—  Of course, there was a bout of Alanis Morrisette.  Couldn’t be helped.
– Oh yeah! Lorana McKennet, Sarah McLachlan, and some other group.  It bugs the heck out of me I can’t remember.  When I do, I’ll update the blog.

When Jason and I started going out, we had a song…  the original version of “I got you babe” from Sonny and Cher.  That just seemed appropriate.
–  This was closely followed by “You are my sunshine.”   I used to sing it to him. =)

—  When he and I attended college at the same time and then my work with his college, my song changed to Hollaback Girl from Gwen Stefani.   Okay, I don’t know the lyrics outside of the main theme…
“This shit is bananas B-A-N-A-N-A  That got me through my master paper!

—  When Jason and I started to fall apart, my song changed to “Two out of three ain’t bad” by Meat Loaf.  You might know this one…  I want you.. I need you… but I’m never going to love you…

Now… I don’t think I have a song.  It’s suspended.   I really need to find one.  I’m in a void.  Being silent hurts.

I hope I can find help soon.

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