I don’t think anyone lives in the here and now.
We’re stuck in the past of where and when or mired in the future of what and why.
Accept for anorexics.
We live focused in the past, present, and future.
Before taking that first bite, there is a severe mental calculation that accounts for everything that we’ve eaten that day, that week, and even that month.
This is followed by the future – what social engagements are there? Will we have to eat there? What type of food? How can I get by not eating but while trying to fit in with the others? Will I have an opportunity to exercise to reduce or, at best, negate, what I’m about to eat.
Then, there’s the present.
What’s in this? Do I have to eat all of it? Is there a way that I could only eat a portion or just certain things on it? Certainly, there wouldn’t be too much pizza sauce baked on the chicken part, right?
The whole situation is mentally exhausting.
That’s no way to live. The moment is examined, dissected, and left to litter the highways.
I think most anorexics are smarter than what they think they are certainly smarter then what everyone gives them credit for. It takes a lot of critical thinking and effort to places that much thought into a mass-produced piece of bread.
It’s bound to be more effort than what was actually used to produce the bread.
It’s just astonishing.
But, I think that since we perceive all sides, we understand more and maybe can even help more.
If someone is anxiety bound about starting another college term, a new job, or even a new relationship, anorexically (who knew that was a word?) thinking, theorizing, and evaluating the past, present, and future could help reduce anxiety.
The biggest fear is the moment before the bite. The past, present, and future considerations help become a bridge over that gap.
Not to be confused with a solution.
No one has that.
But just a bridge.

Leave a comment