I’m trying to become more accepting of the entire virus situation.

I have to keep reminding myself that it’s not forever.
The world is just a little crazy right now, but things will even out soon.

Exactly when soon (TM) is, no one knows.   A week?  A month?  Next year?

But, life moves on.
I survived the House.   This is actually kind of better.    I can still walk and I’m not being force-fed.

Helpful.

Mom is healthy.  Siblings are healthy.  Jason is.   I am, sort of, but the mental part is coming along.   I’m getting worried about the cat, but I think I have to worry about something.   It’s genetic.

Since Jason is working from home, I had access to the car for a little while.  That was nice.    I could go to the park when I wanted and I became the primary grocery shopper.
While that was a bit rough on the checking account, I was the only one who could get to the stores in the morning when they actually have stuff.   So, yeah, it was nice.  I actually felt needed.

But, apparently, Jason had a brain fart and backed the car into a concrete barrier.  Since it’s a lease, the car is in the body shop for just over a week.   Neither one of us is really going anywhere for a while and I’m betting the car insurance will go up in June.   …  /sigh.   I pay the car insurance.

But, it is what it is.   Accidents happen.

I’ve run into stationary objects before too.   Mindful, I was 17 at the time, but it was a parked truck.

Still, I have this feeling of uneasiness that I can’t seem to shake.
At times, I feel physically ill.   Tired.   But, not mentally tired.   Just physically.   I want to take naps, particularly in the morning and I kind of got to where I really don’t care about a lot of stuff.

I feel that there’s so much going on that I can’t control or influence.    Maybe I’m just shutting down.

Or trying to shut down.

Like right now.   I’m feeling pretty sick.   Not like barf sick or virus sick.   Just ill like there’s something off internally.  Covid… covid… covid…   All I hear and all I see is covid.   On the radio.   People in masks and gloves.   Students complaining.   It’s just getting in my head.

Yep.
Seriously feeling physically ill right now just thinking about it.

I hope this will be over soon.

But, I’m guessing no.

There are too many people trying to take advantage of this “crisis.”