Finally got to the gym today after months and months.
It felt pretty good.

I’m kind of ashamed of how my arms have degraded.
I had to drop at least ten or more pounds on the arm curl and other machines, but my legs seem just fine – save for the busted knee. I saw a few familar faces and the massage lounge chair felt really good.

Then, baby brother and I met mom and her sidekick at Bob Evans. I had a grilled chicken dinner bell plate. Bro had tenders and fries. I have the evening entirely to myself.

Tomorrow is going to follow the same pattern save it’ll be KFC instead of Bob Evans. (Going to be really careful with what eat tonight.) There’s a Wizards event that starts tomorrow and may head to the fairground for that if it’s not too cold after.

Beautiful day here, it’s just 40 degrees and falling.
Tomorrow, we’ll be creeping back into the upper 50s and 60s beyond that. That’s more my type of weather. Well, anything between 60 and 80ish. Persophone’s bones are a little fickle as she gets older.

I’m having a really hard time with this class.
For the past two semesters, I had two lively courses. Now, I just have an ENG102 and it’s mostly dead rolling into the third week. I hope it livens up some. I like to feel like I’m earning my money, but.. if not.. well, there’s not a whole lot I can do. And I’m okay with that. My students are adults. If they want to get into student loan debt and fail the classes, that’s on them.

I’ve been around long enough to know that a lot of instructors are absolutely crappy and stuff happens, but college is a commitment. I’m not going to force adults to participate. Nor will I allow them to play my emotions. But, I will nag like heck and make them feel bad for, essentially, volunteering to fail.

And, that’s okay too.
I don’t know how many future medical coders and paralegals this world needs.

I’ve had hours to start writing this but kept putting it off.
I have to re-train myself again. There’s something I want to do, so I should do it.
Heck, I’ve already paid for a two year subscription, so I might as well. It’s just mental freeze. An anti-epithany.
I need to incorporate this into my daily schedule.

It really bothers me how quickly I dropped this and the gym earlier in the year.
It’s just a rewiring of my brain, but I don’t know how many times I can rewire any more.

I couldn’t help notice how mom gave an approving nod to what I ordered and watched me eat everything.
I was hungry, true, but I ate both rolls to avoid possibly worrying her as a call back from the anorexic years. I know that what I perceived from her could just have been in my head and not real. Still, it was there and I did something I really want to do to appease others.

It’s not a big deal.
The roll wasn’t spectacular, but it was warm. It’s just my head is messed up when it comes to certain things.
At one point, the psychologist vaguely suggested that I had developing ADHD. Which, I don’t want to believe but I guess it could make since. I don’t knows. Rambling….

It’s a super slow news day.
The article about Biden stumbling on the stairs going to Airforce One has been in the top headlines for hours. I think it’s gotten more press time than when Trump lost his umbrella.

I think it’s important to remember that news services don’t just control what we see and hear, but they also control — how long — we see it and hear it. The longer something is in the news, the more important it seems. Biden’s little mishap is just a piece of a bigger role — that he’s lossing it and will continue to lose it. That guy can’t even walk up stairs – har, har, har.

It adds to the collective unconcious that he has called Harris president multiple times, hasn’t taken questions from in a press conference in… ever? Yep. That’s a great way to bring together America, Joe. This is ignoring Covid, Hunter, the pipeline, and boarder issues.

The media is trying to showcase the man to be faulty, which isn’t difficult.
If the powers that be can get him ejected for mental and physical issues, maybe Americans will be saved money on the surely forthcoming impeachment investigations.

Joe isn’t lying when he calls Harris president.
It’s just a matter of time. We all know that.
When they get done having him do the dirty work and pinning stuff on him that they don’t want to be associated with others, he’ll be hung out to dry.

Obviously.
Shame really.