I think I’ve lost a filling.

The last time I was in Florida, I lost a filling on the right side that was slighly annoying but not to bad.
It only bothered me if I ate something cold and it hit the right spot. Mouthwash also irritated it.

Know what?
I’m switching up what I was going to complain about.
I’m going to complain about something else.

Right now, today, everything is fairly digusting.

I’m disqusting because I’m starting to lose track of myself – again.
I’ve started to sleep in later and later while taking naps in the morning and middle of the day. I’m continuing to hit the knock-off Tums to help avoid feelings of nausia and being sick. I’m upset that I haven’t discovered the reasons why I feel like I’m on the verge of being forever sick.

This is like the feelings, attitude, and physical reaction I had last time I was here — which was absolutely miserable.

I’m afraid that I’m snowballing that way again.
— I’m not going to let myself get that way. Even if I have to go back to Indiana earlier than expected, I will. I’m not going to allow my life to become blackout miserable.

Jason is starting to disqust me.
I understand his situation. Or, I think I do. He’s against the Covid vaccination. I think that’s fair. Given all of the controversy and uncertainty, it’d be stupid to accept lethality jabs.
– What really is upsetting is the little things. Heavy sighs while he’s working. The hopelessness of his tone he talks to his trainer or boss on the phone. If I was his supervior, I wouldn’t be happy with the attitude. Sure, I wouldn’t expect him to be happy all the time, but… geez. Every time.

Awful. Simply awful.

Jason worked hard for this position.
It pays well, has work he can certainly get the hang of and went to college for upteen billion years to get here. Covid shot and everything aside, at least he could show some satisfaction that he achieved part of his goal. It just makes my stomache churn.

I think he’s taking the whole thing personally. Well, who wouldn’t? It’s hard to explain. The Mastermind in me wants to see the situation in black and white. The job and the Covid jab are different entities. Just because he’s upset about the jab doesn’t mean he has to take a depressed attitude towards the job.

Yes, the job has its own set of challenges. Absolutely. But, that’s to be expected. This is a learning phrase. He’s smart enough to know this. I don’t see how repeated HEAVY EMOTIONAL SIGHS are related to fighting with tax returns.

Well, yes I can. But, not continually and multiple times over days, weeks, and months.

I have two classes this term.
That’s fine. It sucks, but will help pay back some of the money that I sunk into the garage… which might not mean anything if he sells the house.

— Anyway, the students are utterly disgusting.
Not all of them. Some of them are absolutely awesome, but there’s a high number of anxiety babies. I haven’t coined a proper term for them yet. But, these are adults who don’t want write because they’re afraid.

They claim to have some sort of anxiety and can’t put two words togehter. They claime to be somewhat intelligent in all things but this topic.

There is just so much handholding and completely stupid questions that it’s mindboggling. Honestly, it is. I can understand some but it’s just absolutely vapid when the question forum has twice the amount of posts as a normal weekly discussion.

Seriously, wtf?

The “anxiety” — quotes intentional because some of them probably don’t have anxiety. It’s just cover for a case of the stupids — means that they’re “entitled” not to turn in assignments on time, not read the directions, or to use any ounce of effort towards anything… anything at all. Except, the effort it takes to whine about failing the class — providing that they care what their grade is.

I have the feeling that at least 20 or more of my 50 students are going to realize that they’re going to fail within the last week, demand an extension, and blame it on anxiety… when it’s really just entitlement and utter laziness.

I realize that some people have anxiety.
I do. I have it when it comes to some things as well. It’s part of the human condition. But, if these so-called adults are going to allow anxiety to rule their lives, they shouldn’t have voluntarily enrolled in college. It’s like being allergic to peanut butter and taking a dive in a vat of Skippy.

Absoultely. Case of the stupids.
And it is disgusting.

I’m not even mentioning AOC, Biden, the boarder, and Aghanistan.

But… I have figured out how I lost that filling.

I’ve been grinding my teeth together so much lately that my jaw has been popping.
It has actually started to have a dull throb on the right hand side. I must have reduced the lost filling to a fine powder with all this crap that’s going on.