This is kind of an odd day.

We’re well after 1pm and havent’ done anything… not really.
Jason is still in bed. (Not for the reasons why I’d prefer him in bed, but that’s okay.) The cat is sleeping. I easily caught up on my classes, for the moment.
I’m in neutral.

If I was by myself, I’d be at the gym – the nice low cost option to burn stress and calories.
But, I’m not.

I thought about stealing the car or walking to the grocery store to pick up a few things. However, I kind of feel that Jason may want to leave the house when he wakes. So, I delayed that impulse for a while.

So, here I am. Totally screwing up my posture by lying on the couch listening to the Lucifer soundtrack. ( I will always be king of pain…. )

I guess it’s okay to be in neutral for a little while.
Maybe this is what i need to write. If I have a constant in my life, it’s allowing myself to become distracted from the important things. Writing is important me and yet the thing I keeo myself very distracted from doing – even when I have the time to do it. And now the cat is helping.

Although, I kind of got to admit that it’s selfishly comforting that the highly skitty kitty accepts me no matter how many times I’ve vanished from his life. It’s a wonder, really. I guess he thinks I’m trainable or something.

Or he wants food since Jason isn’t up to feed him.
Maybe both. Who knows.

I think my last post helped release a lot of frustration.
Along with the neutral position comes mellowness. That’s okay. It takes a lot of energy to be upset and there’s only so many knock-off Tums I should chew in the course of a day.

Don’t get me wrong.
I’m still disgusted and upset by a lot of things. But, I’m back to letting it roll off me. It’s kind of like taking a shower. I’m covered in tainted city water, paying to be covered in toxic water, but it all goes down the drain after a little soap and scrubbing.

I’ll pay for it someday and, along with the contaminated natural resource, bits of my cells join the mass sewer with everyone else – liberals and conservative alike.

Man, I really wish Grammarly worked with WordPress.
Grammarly says it’s active but it doesn’t work here for some reason. PITA.

We’re approaching 2 and I haven’t ate anything but an unflavored rice cake.
Doing good on the calorie count for today so far.