Good news.

I finally had another positive change on the house although it cost me.
I almost said ‘cost me dearly,’ but I didn’t have to shed blood or broker a deal with the devil. So, it just cost me.

The ceilings in the living room and kitchen are now painted and crack-free. The peeling paint from the formerly leaky roof is gone. It’s like it never happened.

This is the improvement that Jason really wanted to be completed. It was, I think, at the top of his want list and it just feels good to have done despite the monetary cost.

I can understand why Jason wanted the ceiling fixed. It was an awful eyesore. The shoddy carpet and scratched floor can be overlooked a bit. The walls are bad, but not horrible – although the white ceilings highlight how bad some of the walls are. But, it can be difficult to overlook a deeply cracked ceiling. It shows a lack of stability and potential house instability.

But, I think that there are other reasons. After all, some years ago, the ceiling in the bedroom collapsed on him while he was sleeping. (For some reason, the air handler is in the attic of this little house. It just fell for some reason and fell on the side of the bed that I should have been sleeping on if I wasn’t at the House.) So, there’s that.

I also think that there might be another reason. The roof leaked for at least a good year. He tried to band-aid it with shingles and other methods. But, the leaks just continue to multiply. A couple of times, I made it known that I wanted the roof to be replaced. He wasn’t ready and I deferred to his opinion. That just caused the ceilings to be increasingly damaged.

His delay and indecisiveness caused damage to the house – a thing that we have taken upon ourselves to have a duty to protect and defend. But, several years later, it’s finally resolved.

And, truthfully, the new ceilings and some of the reorganization of the rooms have provided a whole new feel and flow. Well, not new but a revival of the old back when the house was new to us. It kind of reminds me of the time before I painted the walls with the insanity and desperation that came with my mental break and anorexia.

There’s no way I’m satisfied. There are still many things to change. But, it’s a step in the right direction. For the moment, I feel satiated.

I’m also preparing to return to Indiana.
It’s roughly a month off. I fly back on February 25th.

I’m looking forward to it, of course. I miss the freedom and my family that Indiana provides.
But, things have calmed down here. I haven’t been off-my-rocker upset for a couple of weeks. Jason’s mom hasn’t been totally distressing and intrusive.

Even Jason has calmed down, although it’s only a bit. The Supreme Court shooting down the vaccine mandate had a lot to do with that. There’s a mandate that federal workers * must * be vaccinated and that has been challenged as well and defeated. Although we’re certain that will be pushed to a higher court, right now, we’re safe.

The vaccine isn’t being forced on anyone save healthcare workers.

His main professional goal is to keep his job, which it looks like is going to happen. But, that’s one of the things that we can’t be certain of until after the fact. The situation is looking favorable if he can hold it together and I’m sure he can. It’s just a matter of doing so.

Things can change. But, right now, the situation around here feels pretty stable. We even went to the gym twice last week. Also, it doesn’t feel like I’m pulling him by his hair to go to the gym. He actually suggested it on Sunday.

That’s amazing – Jason suggesting to do something that he was against before.

I’m just a little apprehensive about how the situation will revert when I’m gone for six months or however long it is.

Goals –
To start back on my book. I’ve posted some seventeen entries or something here. I felt swept at the lack of response and audience. I don’t think I have that audience, but I should continue anyway. After all, I’ve never been one to really care what others think.

I want to finish my book to show myself that I can.

And, oddly enough, I’m just sitting idle today.
It’s raining and I’m really not doing much.

I should do something, however.