I have been at home for roughly a week. Well, almost two weeks. Two weeks tomorrow.

I feel like I’m sorting everything out.
But, it’s going well.

Although I enjoy being around Jason, I am an introvert.
It’s nice to be able to do as I please and go throughout the days in a type of solitude. If I want companionship or to talk to someone, I just have to call someone or visit my mom. The time I spend with my brother feels meaningful. He is my comfort animal. =) Discussions with my sister are kind of like a mini-soap opera in regards to her job.

It just feels more organic, for some reason.
At least, for now, it does.

The weather isn’t even bothering me. Well… okay… I ache. Becoming adjusted from 80 to 20 was painful. Indiana is struggling into spring and that makes me ache. But, I was honestly over Florida’s heat and humidity. The winter down there was relatively short-lived – although I enjoyed it while it lasted. For some reason, I wanted to be in the cold.

Clarification — not super cold.
But, the nice cold with bright skies requires a sweater or a jacket. That’s pretty much what I have here right now. It’s enough to chap my lips but not freeze my hands.

And there’s nothing more satisfying than seeing the green push up and out of the ground. The growth.
For some reason, I can literally feel growth. New buds on the trees. Tulip shafts. Birds calling to each other. Water rushing. I internalize all of that and it becomes part of me and, hopefully, I become part of it. This is sorely lacking in Florida – the place of two seasons – humidity and hurricane.

Much to my chagrin, I feel more stable here. I’m a daughter here, not a partner. While I stress about money, inflation, and other things, I’m one step removed from it. While all of that is important, I feel like I’m one step removed and is like a brain massage. If I monitored my blood pressure, I’m willing to bet it’s a bit lower here. I might be just a tad less crazy as I can shrug off adulthood just a little smidge.

I guess things are clearer.
I’m a little less crazy. But, just a little.

For right now, I am going to relish it.