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anorexic

  • 12/6

    Sometimes I wonder if my Prozac dosage didn’t change since I’ve been here. Certainly, there’s quite a bit of difference between here and Indiana.  Both good and bad.   But, I guess in Florida I’m adulting more than in Indiana.     It’s easier to be wise and beneficial when I don’t feel that I have as Read more

  • 11/30

    Survived Thanksgiving. The day was pretty rough mentally, but I think I survived it fairly well. I kept chanting ‘no whammies’ and I guess it worked for once. First, of course, there was the whole food thing. I don’t think anyone really appreciates the dread us anorexics go through outside of another anorexic.  Especially one Read more

  • 11/18

    I feel really bad for the cat, Sneezles. There’s been this plumber, Julio, here since about 9:30. He’s doing his job with the drills and banging and whatever to replace some pipes in the wall.    That’s all well and good, but he’s been doing so for two and a half hours.    I imagine Read more

  • Returning to Florida – yet again

    Next Sunday, November 10th, I will be returning to Florida yet again for three months.   Well, four months.   I won’t be back on home soil until the last day of March.  Instead, I’ll have sand underneath my feet that don’t grow vegetables. But, at the same time, I’m certainly dodging the snow and temperatures dropping Read more

  • 9/10

    …   I just want to say wow. My last post got hits from Australia, India, and the U.S. That is just awesome. You like me.   You really really like me. —  Cliche, yeah, but it helps bring some sort of validation to my life.   Thanks. Okay, moving on… I’ve had this mantra running through my Read more

  • Inside an anorexic mind – part 1

    I’ve been out of the House for about three years now. I think it’s for three years.    It’s however long Jason has been employed at the Revenue. Despite the years, the fact that I’m self-consciously overweight, and am on medication, I don’t consider myself ‘cured.’  I probably never will — as evidenced by the Read more

  • 8/16

    Sixth day in a row….  Yay! See, this is the kind of life I’d like.   I spend part of the day exercising or doing whatever.    The other part is writing about stuff and faffing around.    In this case, watching a couple of episodes of Zero Punctuation.   Especially the writing part.    If I Read more

  • 8/12

    This is odd. It’s the last day of the term. My four students have submitted their final project and I’ve graded it.  Sure, there’s a couple of past-due assignments, but nothing major.  My inbox isn’t overflowing with sob stories or extension requests. I almost don’t know what to do.  It’s like the students actually have Read more

  • 7/11

    Today should be a special day for 7/11 employees everywhere. It fits.   Free slushies for everyone! Yesterday was Chick-fil-a’s Cow Appreciation Day.  Since any corporation or organization can declare (or own) a specific day or an entire month, 7/11 should be able to do so to… if they haven’t already had. Another day of self Read more

  • 5/7

    I’ve been in an odd sort of mood lately. Well, I’m always in an odd sort of mood.   But, that’s beside the point. I’ve been noticing things lately.  Not good things.  Things that are a bit worrying. During my anorexic years, I became increasingly aware of the shapes of other people. I wasn’t cruel to Read more