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anorexic

  • 9/10

    …   I just want to say wow. My last post got hits from Australia, India, and the U.S. That is just awesome. You like me.   You really really like me. —  Cliche, yeah, but it helps bring some sort of validation to my life.   Thanks. Okay, moving on… I’ve had this mantra running through my… Read more

  • Inside an anorexic mind – part 1

    I’ve been out of the House for about three years now. I think it’s for three years.    It’s however long Jason has been employed at the Revenue. Despite the years, the fact that I’m self-consciously overweight, and am on medication, I don’t consider myself ‘cured.’  I probably never will — as evidenced by the… Read more

  • 8/16

    Sixth day in a row….  Yay! See, this is the kind of life I’d like.   I spend part of the day exercising or doing whatever.    The other part is writing about stuff and faffing around.    In this case, watching a couple of episodes of Zero Punctuation.   Especially the writing part.    If I… Read more

  • 8/12

    This is odd. It’s the last day of the term. My four students have submitted their final project and I’ve graded it.  Sure, there’s a couple of past-due assignments, but nothing major.  My inbox isn’t overflowing with sob stories or extension requests. I almost don’t know what to do.  It’s like the students actually have… Read more

  • 7/11

    Today should be a special day for 7/11 employees everywhere. It fits.   Free slushies for everyone! Yesterday was Chick-fil-a’s Cow Appreciation Day.  Since any corporation or organization can declare (or own) a specific day or an entire month, 7/11 should be able to do so to… if they haven’t already had. Another day of self… Read more

  • 5/7

    I’ve been in an odd sort of mood lately. Well, I’m always in an odd sort of mood.   But, that’s beside the point. I’ve been noticing things lately.  Not good things.  Things that are a bit worrying. During my anorexic years, I became increasingly aware of the shapes of other people. I wasn’t cruel to… Read more

  • 4/18

    I’ve been feeling pretty odd lately on several different fronts. It’s about time for me to return to Florida, as per Jason and my agreement from February.  I’m supposed to go down there for a couple of months and then both of us head back to Indiana in late July for Gencon and his vacation.… Read more

  • 3/29

    Saving throw failed. I didn’t see Us today, but I kind of knew I wasn’t going to when I finished the blog yesterday.  But, you know, that’s okay. I’m kind of used to getting my hopes up and then letting myself down.   It’s a tedious process but makes it sweeter when I actually do follow… Read more

  • 3/28

    I talked myself out of seeing a movie. I heard that US was a psychological horror flick with tones of anti-socialism and groupthink.  It’s a bit bloody, kind of funny, and would take many viewings to catch the entire meaning. I was going to watch it yesterday but sabotaged myself by staying too long at… Read more

  • 1/24

    Something strange happened this morning. I fell. It wasn’t just a little fall either.  It had two parts. First, there was the pre-lack of coordination.  This is when I performed the morning ritual of bribing… not giving… bribing the cat with some 6am snacks as a way let Jason get another hour of sleep before… Read more