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  • 1/21

    Today feels like it’s going to be lazy. At one point, I thought that was a curse…  a day without running around in some form of panic and anxiety.  But, I’ve become pretty cool with it as long as it doesn’t happen too often. Actually, I’m feeling fairly tired again. I might take a nap.… Read more

  • 1/6

    I made yesterday more difficult than it needed to be. We started roaming — which is good.   We just drive around until we hit a place or something comes to mind.   It’s not planned, but kind of like going on a explore mission in some game.    We get bonus points by covering a lot… Read more

  • 12/31

    Happy New Year’s Eve. Congratulations –  We’re under 24 hours away from putting up the 2019 calendar – somehow.   It’s been a pretty crazy year. Yeh, but it’s over. Let the new craziness begin! Yesterday was kind of a fruit loop. In the morning, the boy’s mother and step-dad stopped to visit. Apparently, the Sunday… Read more

  • 12/14

    There’s nothing wrong with having an off day, is there? Silly question, I know.  I know it’s okay, but I always wonder if it’s okay. Well, if it’s okay for – me – to have an off day. Lee’s visit has left fairly melancholy. While this is a somewhat familiar mindstate at home, this is… Read more

  • 12/6

    Well, today has been pretty much a bust. It hasn’t rained or snowed, although I’m sure it’s freezing out there. I’m half packed and spent most of the day napping. While lounging around the house is some people’s picture of a perfect day, I find it fairly madding.  I feel like I have to be… Read more

  • 12/5

    Wednesday –  Cold – like the high of the mid to low 30s.  That’s about zero degrees in Celsius.  Good times. I think I drove the truck for the last time today.  Well, the last time for a couple of months.   It’s supposed to snow and rain tomorrow.   I don’t really have a viable reason… Read more

  • 12/1

    Admittedly, I’ve made the past couple of days harder on myself than I needed to be. The Wednesday routine mammogram turned up something.  This something was so something that they called me back on Thursday for additional pictures. Neither I nor my doctors are sure what it is yet, but I have two theories. A: … Read more

  • 11/27

    Saw Doc S this morning. No change in the anti-depressants. She warded me from anti-schizophrenia meds.    Doc S said that, with my history, the side effects could be worse than any potential help.    If the voices persist, we may have to resort to that, but so far, so good. Despite the cold and… Read more

  • 11/23

    It didn’t really dawn on me until today how much I should actually be grateful and thankful for what I have. First, I have a family who loves me and I love in return. Sure, we have our ups and downs, but when the crap hits the fan, they are there waiting.   No questions asked… Read more

  • 11/22

    The last two days have been kind of odd. On Tuesday, the little sister and I went to Bloomington for the sole purpose of checking out Culvers.  This store was offered to her, but she didn’t want to have to travel that far every day.  So, she ended up training the management team. It was… Read more