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  • 8/28

    I have so many thoughts going through my head that I’m crazy. But this is a different type of crazy from the usual crazy. I guess it’s a more controlled crazy. It’s a more realized and manageable one since…. finally… I got my brain tumor and some answers. I don’t remember if I wrote in… Read more

  • 8/22

    A couple of days ago, I felt almost broken. Not fully broken mentally or physically. Just severely cracked. I think I was feeling kind of peaceful. Kind of accepting. There wasn’t a reason to struggle or fret. I certainly wasn’t in the ‘everything will be okay’ camp but was just tired. It takes a lot… Read more

  • 6/2

    Recently, I’ve been fairly obsessed with finding expired food. I’ve started to go through Mom’s fridge and the one at the house. Today, I crawled through part of the kitchen cabinets. So far, my victims have included:– Peppermint flakes, that expired in 2017– Rice cakes – 2023– Mustard – 2016– Chicken salad – 2023– Wings… Read more

  • 12/2

    Well, I finally did it.  I brought some sort of legitimacy to my blog.  I actually paid for a two year subscription at 40% off, of course.    I am now unofficially and officially a paying customer and part of the WordPress community.   What is so frustrating is the process. I started this blog when I got out… Read more

  • 7/22

    From the local paper  –  Dated July 18, 2020. Stick with me here. I’m looking at word choice, not content. INDIANAPOLIS Two men were charged Friday in an assault on a Black man during which someone threatened to ‘get a noose’ after claiming… . In a typical newspaper style, the sentence is like two paragraphs… Read more

  • 7/4

    It’s been kind of a lonely holiday. It’s just me, chilling, all by myself.   Which isn’t bad.  My alone time allows me to self-repair and I got a lot of stuff to fix.  This is good. Didn’t go to the gym today.    Rather, I walked 145% of my Samsung step count downtown.  I’m… Read more

  • 7/3

    I guess I’m melancholy today. The day itself isn’t bad.   I got to hang out with baby brother, had pizza, and a couple of breadsticks.     Class hasn’t begun as of yet.    This is like a super relaxing time. It’s a little difficult to get motivated when it’s 90 plus outside.  =)… Read more

  • 7/1

    I think I’m handling this change well. I was supposed to go out with baby brother, but he hurt his leg last night. We’re staying instead of heading to the gym. At one point, I would have been internally furious at this. I would have been upset, sad, and scheming on how to make up… Read more

  • 6/24

    I think I lost sleep last night. Since this whole thing started and we’ve moved into ‘uncertain times,’ I’ve maintained the belief that everything will go back to what it was before. The loss of money from companies and the habits of Americans would be a significant factor in pushing back for normalcy.  We are… Read more

  • 6/10

    Only about a week and a half before my current class ends. Thank goodness. So, it was the class that almost wasn’t as it was given to me at literally the last moment.  It allowed me to make payments on the roof and car insurance.   I’m grateful for that.  Absolutely. But two students, in particular,… Read more