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  • We’re all nails.

    Hammer and nail. It has occurred to me just how society is shaped by technology. When something is developed, a lot of time, effort, and creativity are involved. Innovation and creativity are usually at the core. Slicked by good intentions and novelty, the technology is adapted. Then, it’s standardized and specialized. Variations are created. So, Read more

  • 11/28

    I survived Thanksgiving. Yes, I know… first word problems… it’s in my head… I’m ungrateful…. I just don’t get it… No, I get it. I know that Thanksgiving is a blessing. It shouldn’t be feared. I’m fortunate to have a wonderful family, a warm place, and enough food to have leftovers for days. But I Read more

  • I… I haven’t been well lately. A lot of this I think I’m placing on myself. I’m anxious about work. About my health. About relationships. About the holidays. Thanksgiving is less than a week away and I’m stressing. I’m quite happy with my current consumption of food. The pressure of mashed potatoes, gravy, dressing… I Read more

  • 10/29

    I’m apprehensive about the SNAP thing. It doesn’t affect me. I’m not on SNAP, but given my history, I know food access shouldn’t be denied. It can be limited, difficult, have self-imposed boundaries, or medical restrictions. But denied? No more food stamps? It’s not just that. Americans have little to no, generally speaking, financial comprehension. Read more

  • 10/18

    I feel like I messed up. Jason found this article from someone who claimed that 70% or higher dark chocolate (non-alkaline aka. – not Dutch chocolate) has a wealth of benefits. It has flavonoids, magnesium, anti-oxidants… ect. After a bit of quick research, we bought a bar of Tony’s from the local Wal-Mart. That evening, Read more

  • 8/8

    The anxiety is starting to creep back in. Over the past couple of weeks… maybe even a month… I’ve been managing it well. It’s almost been a golden month. I think I’ve had a better attitude. I’m still struggling with sleeping. But it’s getting better. I’ve been making it a point to eat a lot Read more

  • 7/31

    I’ve been trying really hard to be good. The euphoria from earlier this week has all btu evaporated. It dipped severely on Tuesday. Came back and evened out a bit on Wednesday with the little sister. Today, I’m fighting to stay in even. I don’t want to be depressed but not so high that I’ll Read more

  • 7/19

    Jason is sleeping and, try as I might, I can’t stay down. When he’s at home, I try to wake at the same time he does. It’s a challenge since it’s difficult to sleep and, once my brain switches on, I begin to structure my day, what I want to do, should do, need to Read more

  • The New Four Horsemen: Big Data, AI, 3D Printing, and Robotics

    There are Four Horsemen, right? DeathConquestFamineWar. Pale HorseRed HorseBlack HorseWhite Horse These are mentioned, I think, in the Old Testament and are supposed to be indicators of the End of Times and the Second Coming. After some thought, I think I’ve identified the up-to-date version of the Four Horsemen. . big data3d printingairobotics I’m kind Read more

  • 7/4

    Okay. So, today, I’m feeling kind of lost. Jason is off of work. We don’t have a schedule. No real reason to go anywhere. It’s too hot outside to do anything substantial. No events. No appointments. Class has started but there’s nothing to grade right now. We might change the water softener filter and… ? Read more