eating disorder

Every day brings its own brand of crazy. Today should have been simple enough. It should have been pleasurable. It should have been stress-relieving. How many people can talk to their sister as a friend? But, no. Rather, in my poor attempt to explain my situation, I just became more aware of how desperate and… Read more

Thank goodness that there’s just one more holiday left – New Year’s.   Mom and Jason decided to have dinner.  But that’s our typical Sunday.   I guess that’s to be expected although I don’t know who is going to cook. I put in a request for miso soup.    I like it, haven’t had it for a… Read more

Yesterday was… challenging.   It started off at 8:30 with an appointment with Dr. S.   I was weighed in and lost a couple of pounds from when I saw her three weeks ago.  (A couple of pounds isn’t a big deal.   That could just be clothing or water weight.  It wasn’t like I dropped ten pounds or even… Read more

I feel like I’m spoiling myself a little today. Instead of jumping up early, often right when or before the cat starts to wail, I hid under the nice warm covers and slept a bit more. For me, this means I snuggled up until around 7 or 7:30 instead of 5am despite hearing the cat.… Read more

Four more days until the class is done. Can’t wait.   The last couple of days tend to be busy as students ‘wake up.’  Mostly, these are students who realize that they’re failing or are going to fail.  There’s a sudden rush of weeks-old assignments, asks for revisions, and panicky excuses.   If I’m lucky, they’ll skip the excuses part.   I don’t… Read more

/ I am * so * bashing my head in right now. Jason received a response from the State on a job on TUESDAY.. – Serious yay. Hopes are suddenly high. I’m praying for the light at the end of the tunnel. The State sent a spreadsheet and asked him to identify and explain what… Read more

It’s been a while since I’ve posted anything. Actually, longer than what I thought it has been. How time slips away sometimes. To my defense, I’ve been kind of busy with work. As the end of the term approaches, the workload ramps up, late assignments start to trickle in, and there’s just general panic. I’m… Read more

Yesterday was phenomenal on a couple of different fronts. Not personally phenomenal, although it was a gym day and I got to eat a Mancino’s. That’s just a normal great day. But, it was a globally phenomenal day for three primary reasons. * The global population hit eight million. — This means that, despite the… Read more

Yesterday, Jason had a “talk” about my weight and eating habits. He became emotional, shared his fears, and even seemingly teared up at one point. When that happens, his lips contract and face contorts. Instead of looking like a man, he curiously resorts into an angry child progression. It’s fascinating and ugly at the same… Read more

I wouldn’t say yesterday was a “very bad day.” It was a very exhausting day. It was trying. Frustrating. Upsetting. But, not ‘very bad.’ Very bad is a absence of good and there is good. There’s good in every day, even if it is bad. Even if the sun rises, it’s good, despite what may… Read more