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  • 6/22

    It’s been a while. Too long. I don’t have an excuse. Just life, I suppose, but life shouldn’t be an excuse. Life should be celebrated. But here I am. Maybe, I pray, I can get back on track or any type of track. I was doing so well there with writing – better than I… Read more

  • 4/20

    A concept Jason and I lightly talked about yesterday was how society is being isolated. Unless there’s a mob mentality, as shown in Chicago and California last weekend, people are becoming increasingly afraid of themselves, others, and of expressing opinions. There’s an all or nothing ideology. A person is anti-gun, pro-abortion, pro LGBTQUIA+, and believes… Read more

  • 4/12

    According to the Mayo Clinic, there are typically four tests to determine if someone should have a pacemaker. – EKG This provides general information concerning the heart. – Holter Monitoring.The person carries around a device that monitors the heart rate over the period of days. This is to find abnormalities and provides greater detail than… Read more

  • 4/6

    I was in therapy yesterday — Yes. Just yesterday discussing how important it is for me to feel financially secure. How little and seemingly inconsequential expenditures upset and cause me a lot of stress. If I deem something in the ‘wanted’ category, I ignore the desire until it goes away. Yes, no fun for me.… Read more

  • 3/31

    Something has been going on with me over the past couple of days. My body has actually been trying to sleep. Well, maybe sleep is a generous term. It’s been just shutting down anytime I sit still for more than a minute. Unfortunately, this is generally when I’m trying to grade assignments and interact with… Read more

  • 3/9

    The parade of doctor appointments continues. Today, it’s Ashley the case worker. Yesterday, it was to Indy and the urologist. — That one was interesting in its own right. But, the one on Tuesday is currently at ‘the top of mind.’ I’m heading into kind of uncharted territory. Background: I’ve had an EKG and an… Read more

  • 3/6

    Not yesterday but the day before, I took a sleeping pill prescribed by Dr. P. It’s named Matzapine or something like that. I’m supposed to take one before bedtime. It’s 30 mg. The pill is light blue, oval, and just tiny, really. That one pill knocked me on my butt all Saturday. I couldn’t walk… Read more

  • 2/18

    I think there are too many distractions going on for our own good. Look over there — it’s a murderous AI chatbot who wants to kill us all and fell in love with a random person. But, wait! We wasted nearly half a million dollar missile to pop a $12 balloon. No…. Don’t look at… Read more

  • 1/25

    Well… This has been another odd week. Jason ** did ** start work. Actually, he’s been hosted in Indianapolis for the past couple of days for opening documents and information. Although he’s been gone for just a few days (returning this evening), I’ve taken the opportunity to do a couple of things that I wouldn’t… Read more

  • 1/20

    By all accounts, or most of them, I should be satisfied. Mom is healthy and sassy. Baby brother is doing well. Little sister has all but moved home. It * does * actually seem Jason will start his new job on Monday. As an added bonus, he’ll be staying in Indy for three days of… Read more