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I should be happy. If not happy, at least moving towards satisfied. Jason has * finally * procured a job. It’s with the government and starts on the 23rd. The little sister is moving form Indy back home. Mom is happy. As far as I know, baby brother is happy and healthy. Yes, the weather… Read more

I’m… um… I’m feeling fairly exhausted right now and it’s just a minute over 8 am. This is not new. Unfortunately, it has become very typical and expected. What’s different is that I’m not out for a walk in the near-freezing cold. … just stuck my head out the door. Actually, it’s not that bad… Read more

Random update: This morning, I’m back on the exercise bike. This isn’t bad but a little different. I started the bike in the mornings to help stretch out my hip while looking at classes. Since the term is over, I’ve been trying to take morning walks instead. I find this immensely more helpful as it… Read more

Every day brings its own brand of crazy. Today should have been simple enough. It should have been pleasurable. It should have been stress-relieving. How many people can talk to their sister as a friend? But, no. Rather, in my poor attempt to explain my situation, I just became more aware of how desperate and… Read more

Thank goodness that there’s just one more holiday left – New Year’s.   Mom and Jason decided to have dinner.  But that’s our typical Sunday.   I guess that’s to be expected although I don’t know who is going to cook. I put in a request for miso soup.    I like it, haven’t had it for a… Read more

Yesterday was… challenging.   It started off at 8:30 with an appointment with Dr. S.   I was weighed in and lost a couple of pounds from when I saw her three weeks ago.  (A couple of pounds isn’t a big deal.   That could just be clothing or water weight.  It wasn’t like I dropped ten pounds or even… Read more

I feel like I’m spoiling myself a little today. Instead of jumping up early, often right when or before the cat starts to wail, I hid under the nice warm covers and slept a bit more. For me, this means I snuggled up until around 7 or 7:30 instead of 5am despite hearing the cat.… Read more

Four more days until the class is done. Can’t wait.   The last couple of days tend to be busy as students ‘wake up.’  Mostly, these are students who realize that they’re failing or are going to fail.  There’s a sudden rush of weeks-old assignments, asks for revisions, and panicky excuses.   If I’m lucky, they’ll skip the excuses part.   I don’t… Read more

/ I am * so * bashing my head in right now. Jason received a response from the State on a job on TUESDAY.. – Serious yay. Hopes are suddenly high. I’m praying for the light at the end of the tunnel. The State sent a spreadsheet and asked him to identify and explain what… Read more

It’s been a while since I’ve posted anything. Actually, longer than what I thought it has been. How time slips away sometimes. To my defense, I’ve been kind of busy with work. As the end of the term approaches, the workload ramps up, late assignments start to trickle in, and there’s just general panic. I’m… Read more