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  • 4/11

    Well, at least this pandemic has done one thing that I didn’t think would happen for a really long time. —  After some nudging, Jason pre-ordered the Final Fantasy 7 remake. It was delivered on Friday and he started playing that same day. There’s something special about playing a game knowing that there aren’t any… Read more

  • 4/9

    I’m trying to become more accepting of the entire virus situation. I have to keep reminding myself that it’s not forever. The world is just a little crazy right now, but things will even out soon. Exactly when soon (TM) is, no one knows.   A week?  A month?  Next year? But, life moves on.… Read more

  • 2/18

    No lie. It’s been a rough couple of days. I know how became rough. Yesterday, I couldn’t stomach pizza and got sick in the evening. Rewind.   It started with a mass headache on 2/17.   It was so bad that I literally couldn’t think and could barely see.    But, I am who I am so… Read more

  • 2/15

    I can’t help thinking about the past. There was a time when I refused and couldn’t go anywhere because of all the classwork I had to endure.    I put so much pressure on myself that I permanently altered my psychological and physical state. Now, Jason is plowing through some sort of coding assignment and… Read more

  • 2/14

    Well, I’m off to a great start. It’s almost one and I just woke from a three-hour nap.  What’s up with that? I knew I was getting worn out a bit, but just blanking out for multiple hours isn’t my style.   It’s not it was a straight multi-hour nap. I woke up a couple of… Read more

  • 2/7

    I stayed at home today. It was supposed to rain or I thought it was going to rain and it didn’t. I could have gone to the gym but just didn’t for some reason.  Not too sure why.  I’m sure I’d felt better about the pizza tonight if I did. Instead, I did some yard… Read more

  • 2/1

    Today is odd, but it kind of feels right. We’re not going anywhere today – cept for a pizza run.   Jason has been playing games for most of the day as I have, although I check in on my class from time to time to grade the odd assignment. It’s Superbowl weekend.  I’m either… Read more

  • 1/23

    At home today… which isn’t that bad. I’m pretty sure I walked over ten miles yesterday between St. John’s Pass and Seminole.    Towards the end of my sojourn, my legs were going nope, nope, nope, nope.   They were mostly numb for the rest of the night… which is good.  My back was doing enough… Read more

  • 1/17 – part two

    I don’t like these uneasy hours.     They’re wasted. I can’t really start on a major cleaning project because I know I won’t be finished by the time Jason comes home.    I ran out of supplies to work outside. It’s too early to begin cooking dinner and right now there’s nothing to do in… Read more

  • 1/17

    Today… today I devote myself to classwork, straightening the yard, and continuing to clean the house. My original thought today was to go to the gym for a while but wanted to wait for the bug guy.   Because Florida has some huge bugs and I don’t like bugs, Mr. Bug Guy comes out once every… Read more