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  • 1/24

    Something strange happened this morning. I fell. It wasn’t just a little fall either.  It had two parts. First, there was the pre-lack of coordination.  This is when I performed the morning ritual of bribing… not giving… bribing the cat with some 6am snacks as a way let Jason get another hour of sleep before… Read more

  • 1/21

    Today feels like it’s going to be lazy. At one point, I thought that was a curse…  a day without running around in some form of panic and anxiety.  But, I’ve become pretty cool with it as long as it doesn’t happen too often. Actually, I’m feeling fairly tired again. I might take a nap.… Read more

  • 1/8

    Change of plans. I’m not going to the gym today.   Rather, I’m going to spend the day doing house and yard work.  My right leg is still feeling pretty spongy.   I’ve got to walk about 45 minutes (one way) to get to the gym.   I’m also feeling kind of sunburnt.  I didn’t use sunblock on… Read more

  • 1/7

    I’m trying something different. I’m sitting g outside, in the dark.  There’s a firetruck wailing in the background.  Fish jumping in the bay.  Waiting for Jason to get out of class. Normally, I’d be walking around while waiting for him to get out of class.  But, I’ve pushed myself a bit today.  According to pokemon… Read more

  • 1/6

    I made yesterday more difficult than it needed to be. We started roaming — which is good.   We just drive around until we hit a place or something comes to mind.   It’s not planned, but kind of like going on a explore mission in some game.    We get bonus points by covering a lot… Read more

  • 1/3

    Here I sit… at around 8:30. I’m not too sure what I want to do.  The boy is catching up on his daily game quota, which is fine.   I know how stress relieving playing a game can be and I don’t want to bother him. Still, I’m a bit bored.  What a luxury… to be… Read more

  • Review: Bird Box

    Spoilers – Yep.   There will be some. I watched Bird Box while at the gym. The hour plus movie accompanied me while I was on the elliptical.  It made the time go by. So, the Bird Box is a Netflix exclusive movie based on the book by Josh Malerman.  I’ve never heard of this guy… Read more

  • 1/1/2019

    Happy New Year! I sincerely hope everyone and yours survived last night. The cat has come out of hiding, which is good.  Everything seems to be going forward, as it should. These are the days when we should reflect and think of how we can better ourselves and our community through resolutions – promises to… Read more

  • 12/31

    Happy New Year’s Eve. Congratulations –  We’re under 24 hours away from putting up the 2019 calendar – somehow.   It’s been a pretty crazy year. Yeh, but it’s over. Let the new craziness begin! Yesterday was kind of a fruit loop. In the morning, the boy’s mother and step-dad stopped to visit. Apparently, the Sunday… Read more

  • 12/29

    Well, I think this trip is going better than last time. It’s not just going to TSO, although that was great.   It’s the actions of the boy. He seems more self-assured and confident.  Visiting his brother’s half a million dollar house didn’t leave him jealous goblin green.  I mean, of course, we’re a bit envious,… Read more